mercredi, juin 29, 2005
elisa tendered her resignation on monday. i wasnt surprise cos i knew it way before hand. and yes. i sorta support her idea of leaving the company. heart comes before mind. :) i hope she made the right choice.
there was a meeting on monday which we dont necessarily have to take part. but goodness. when i reached the office (halfway through their meeting) the boss asked me for my opinion on why there isnt many customers entering the shop. hmm. isnt shuyi there as well? why dont he ask her? oh wells. she was sitting one corner in the office. anyway, so i gave my comment (sorta attacking karen's idea.. but what the heck?) and the boss tried to "argue". hah. and lucky he took 2 of my ideas subsequently (apart from that customers qn)..
for some time i wondered why didnt the boss asked elisa to attend the meeting as well? she is the permanent staff of the company and it is only fair to let her attend. but wells. i know the answer. michelle asked me why elisa resigned. hah. ask her don't ask me. it's meant to be a secret.
anyway. darling went to my office and waited for me to knock off. lucky i brought some of my photo albums for him to see. so he can see it while waiting for me in the office. i went down to esprit and bring him up to office. on my way there, i saw the office cleaner. she saw darling and she said,"
handsome boy.." -_- darn funny. then i looked at him and laughed. "aunty killer" siah. hahaha. he is "aunty killer" i am "uncle killer" lol!!
he is sucha patient man.. how nice of him waiting for me in the office for an hour plus. and this karen (damn her) has
no manners! i obviously did not tell her that i brought my photo albums along is because i dont want her to look at it. but wells. she wanna see so what can i do? and this time round, she saw the albums and she said,"eh? got photos to see ar?" and she happily snatched it away from my bf and look at the pics. darn it. obviously i wasnt happy. and my baby shrugged. i know it's not his fault. i know that blardy karen's character.
the worse thing is.. she said.. ur sister look more ying2 yang3 than you. -_- please lor. i am thin but that doesnt mean that im malnutrition damn you. i was pissed. ruth, weeming and michelle said.."aiyoooo.. so bad".. and i asked karen in a pretty pissed off tone.."what are you trying to say?" and of cos, that blardy insensitive girl shuts up. i am already very pissed. and when we shared lift to get out of the building. she said,"eh your boyfriend like that see.. like not very tall lei." -_- like
hello! you are like 169cm going to 170cm tall. of cos when u look at a person who is 10cm taller than you. you dont think that he's tall what! it's the number which makes a difference. of cos if i look at someone/ anyone who is 10cm taller than me.. i dont think they are tall either. u think is think. dont say what u think out.
dont say anything if you dont have something nice to say!same goes to.. person
A standing next to person
B. person
A thinks that she is taller than person
B but the fact is person
B is taller than a few cm. this shows that looking upwards give u a wrong sense of "judgement". stupid karen lee. to think that you are NUS graduate. not a nutritionist.. happily tell others that you are a nutritionist. you are merely a food technologist not a nutritionist damn you. dunno still must come ask me -_- i cant wait for someone who knows so much about nutrition come and answer you back when u tell them you are from NUS.
lesson learnt: whenever visiting a supplement store i'll ask the nutritionist if they are a real nutritionist.there is no nutrition course in singapore mind you. telling others that you are a nutritionist when in fact you are not. wont get you in good stand. cos u wont know how to answer the questions posed by the customers. elisa, who is not a nutritionist, can explain much better than you cos she reads a lot and learn from experience. and you? yaya papaya say you are a nutritionist? my foot. at least the other nutritionist is not as yaya as you are.
even though this karen and i have the same birthdate. but our characters are helluva different. yes i am straightforward. but not as straightforward as her saying, criticising people right in front of their faces -_- big mouth and "straight intestines". better change yourself before others hate you. be more sensitive a bit.
i wonder how baby tolerate her siah saying "nevermind la.." -_- i cannot nevermind.
I MIND! zzz... shuyi is another irritating fella who pissed me off most of the time. asking me to do whats she's doing? calling customers?! boss give her the job not me!
do ur own thing and dont push it to others. stupid fella thinking that im so free in office like that. im doing accounts.. more brain energy is needed than just calling customers you stupid fella. and i hate calling strangers.
shweet dreams;
12:46 PM
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vendredi, juin 24, 2005
ah wells, a day after i format my damn blardy com cos of whatever reasons lao gong has given me. said that my com have tonnes of trojans?! anyway the cd he lent was corrupted -_- and i had to use my recovery cd with his help and there he was sounding so sian but after a while, he was full of nonsense and i couldnt stop laughing -_-
went to darling's school after going to school to do research
all by myself yesterday. saw his friends. quite friendly i can say. haha i didnt talk much to them though. "crashed" into baby's tutorial class. his lecturer din even say anything sorta like fren-fren type of lecturer.
1 thing that i've noticed. guys do not like girls who dont wanna eat. man. why? haha. i realised that many guys
(*note: many) always love to force their gf to eat even if they do not have the mood to eat or dont feel like eating. they will just keep buying and ask their female counterparts to eat -_- hey mr(s), if we do not feel like eating dun force. hah. i really wonder whats their reason for wanting their gf to eat. hmm.. reasons why we girls dont really wanna eat in front of guys or bf is because we do not want to make a fool of ourselves. ha. cos of the way we eat and most of the time it'll look
messy! haha. we do not want to dirty our clothes when we are eating and the guys happen to see it. it's so xia suay. it's like as if we do not know how to eat properly and the whole mouth becomes so messy and (who knows) clothes might be dirty too.
it's not that im saying that my bf forces me to eat. haha. it's just that he wants me to eat more meat?! which is so unlike myself. i prefer white meat i.e. chicken, fish. i dont really like red meat. and always asking me to promise him that i'll take my meal. lol. pls.. i do not skip meals. haha.
anyways, i saw darl's mum yesterday! -freak- thank goodness we did not do anything wrong at that point of time. she was like asking him, "kevin, who is inside" den he said fren and his mum pushed open the door. and me? i was playing with his dog. lol. of cos i called "auntie" -duh- 2 times, we met each of our mum and we did not do anything wrong haha. lucky eh. and i saw the picture albums darl's mum took when he was young and was celebrating his birthday. i was in most of the pics! and 2 of them i was sitting next to him. i might even slept next to him before. those pics were taken when we were in childcare center (toa payoh). and i look so darn cute and he look so handsome. i made a plentiful of monkey faces. haha how adorable lol.
and currently im reading this book which i borrowed from elisa. a book which is all about colours. it describes your character by the colour you choose and you like. most of it is pretty true.. im an analyst? able to piece "puzzles"/facts together and know what i want. this is damn freaking accurate so dun try to fool around with me eh. haha.
okays i think it's pretty late. i gotta sleep. darn im damn tired. this boy of mine fell asleep when he knows that im coming online!
shweet dreams;
11:57 PM
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mardi, juin 21, 2005
many many pics which i took on 19/06/05 are uploaded into yahoo photos. this baby of mine.. keep saying that my dad looks fierce. ha ha. so u better behave yourself. and my little sweetie is also in the pics.. haha my little sweetie is my lil cousin.. sooo cute.. even baby thinks so. haha.
did a small little online dunno what test jus now. crap man. the stuffs they said or interpreted are all nonsensical. ok maybe one or two accurate ones. but not all.
yesterday during office meeting, big boss asked if i want to continue working for them after my sip. and -duh- of course i wont, cos when school starts i do not want to work. cos i do not want it to affect my studies.
darn. i think the guy i chose to be with is so damn friggin similar to my dad. -_- likes peanut butter, anything wrong with com sure scold me etc. argh! anyway this guy i chose to be with is super smart. haha. 95/100 for test?! can u even believe it? 1 mistake = 5 marks gone. anyways he has done fantastically well. haha. so proud of him. this guy is none other than my babyboy.
oh wells, there are some things i dunno if i should carry on doing. hmm.. though i pretty like to do it but somehow i feel that it's not right and feel sorta weird when i come to think of it. argh. what shall i do? mind over heart or heart over mind? and the question which has been appearing in my mind since thursday.. i do not know if i've come to an answer. the day he did not reply my messages and calls, i got so moody that i did not have the mood to take dinner. and him, because he thinks that he is unable to make me happy, he got so moody that he skipped school -_-
i told this to elisa as in when the problem is sorta solved. she said this one thing "it's like that one. the more you love a person, the more you will get affected by them and become moody".. i guess this is the answer which god gave me. i've been asking for days, and finally the answer dawned upon me through elisa by god. so maybe, the love for him has grown.
last but not least, i wanna say
"love someone = respect him/her, respect his/her decisions"
shweet dreams;
1:33 PM
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dimanche, juin 19, 2005
bahs. a bad bad day today. quarrelled with baby. sucks sucks sucks. waited for his sms till my neck grows long. for a few days, we havent been happy.
he thinks that i am not happy whilst talking to him. but thats not what i am feeling! i feel happy with him, i feel happy talking to him. i feel hurt when he doesnt reply my sms for 1 whole day. he felt hurt cos i din call him on friday. but if i din receive sms = i wont be happy = i wont call.
-sigh- he haven hong3 me yet. im waiting. hai hope that baby will reply my sms liao lor.. hope that whatever things he has told me are all true. hope that he is
NOT the one who sent trojan in (i seriously doubt so). hope that he dun always scare me with the on and off conversation "there are
TONNES of trojans in ur computer".
still im thinking if the love i have for him is real or not. im a step closer to the answer. but i need to re-confirm it/ my feelings.
shweet dreams;
11:47 PM
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mardi, juin 14, 2005
i hate to take mrt in the morning. not only that it's squeezy.. it's also some people will jus squeeze in without saying "excuse me". like hallo!! cant u just see that it's so squeezy in the train? cant u see that everyone is packed like sardine?
it's like so idiotic lor. to just squeeze into every single tiny space u see and to make it worse, without saying "excuse me". and!! when the train reach a particular station.. people on your right are alighting. and of cos, you will move slightly to your left to let them walk out first right. it's like so squeezy.. so if ppl jus squeeze a bit, move a bit, people will be able to walk out right?!
and this lady who is approx in her 50s reaching 60s. give me that damn blardy pissed off look or disgusted look and god knows what look. damn it. i mean.. please lor.. people wanna get off the train do u jus expect me to stand there and let them squeeze their way out?! of cos i have to move to my left lah. and who ask this stupid aunty... board e train, she's the one who squeeze her way through any tiny space she can find. and then when people try to alight she suddenly squeeze to my left. i move a bit, den i realised she's already next to me on my left =.=
you are the freaking one in the wrong lor. and still dare give me that look. who on earth wanna stand so close to you lor pls. den even worse. after a while, this lady took out "lian he zao bao" from her bag to read. =.= the train is packed enought and she still wanna read newspaper there. moron.. i really wonder if she knows what is "excuse me" and "qing rang".. i seriously doubt so. squeezing her way through the crowd, pushing people here and there.. so inconsiderate.
whenever there is people at both your sides trying to get out of the train.. it's e worst feeling ever. u wont know which way to stand. either to your left or your right. hello people, can u jus wait a while. if not, the person in the center will suffer! in a dilemma in making a decision. like if people on the right is alighting, i move to the left. but at the same time, people on the left is trying to alight and keep saying "excuse me" as though i couldnt hear. well.. i heard you. but i have to let the people on the right to go first before i move to my right and so you can alight right?
-sigh- are the people that busy to even let others alight first, cant they just wait for a few seconds?
shweet dreams;
10:12 PM
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lundi, juin 13, 2005
-sigh- should i or should i not go to aussie? my greatest wish and hope is to go to aussie to further my studies. but baby dunno if he can make it there as well. 4 years. it's such a long time. many things can happen. by just telling darling about going to aussie.. he suddenly become so down. he thinks that i might forget about him etc. thing is.. i wont.
darling is the best-est guy i've ever met. the one who treats me well.. he is afraid that i will find someone better at aussie. same course, same interest same this and that. -sigh- baby have low confidence in himself. i wanna tell him that i love him always. and that i wont look for other guys. yes i wont look for other guys. but feelings this kinda things is hard to say. i dunno if the love will still stay even after 4 years. of cos, i would like the feeling to stay cos being in love with him is the best feeling ever.
and because of mentioning aussie to him, baby starts to think a lot and went to bed early. he asked me not to talk about aussie anymore. but what if 1 day i really fly.. and i dun tell him? not possible right? baby, u just have to face the fact that i might be flying over to study. baby, u can make it there as well :) i'll wait for euu there. if both of us pass the obstacle, i know that we'll be together forever.
studying in aussie is not confirmed yet. it's jus a plan. a plan to go. money, results and the acceptance by the university is yet to be confirmed. the above 3 are the crucial factors. without these 3 factors, i can just forget about going to aussie to study. well.. im still contemplating.
should i go or should i not? am i really going to do something that has gotta do with nutrition in future? i will definitely regret if i dun give it a shot and try to see if the university accept me. if it doesnt, at least, i wont regret. God, please help me.
shweet dreams;
12:15 AM
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lundi, juin 06, 2005
hey people! life is good and great haha.. baby called me "lao po" lol.. married to him liao?! haha.. yeah i wanna be with him for the rest of my life. he's been so so so very good to me.. more than what i can ask for. baby sweared that he'll be there for me.. hmm where's my ring? confirm thursday buy ar? haha wanna elope if parents disapprove ar? wont de lah. haha i so good girl, your parents wont disapprove de. haha..
imagine the person you love massage you when you are aching all over, asking if u feel better when you are not feeling well, do lots of sweet sweet things using computer software eg poems and pictures, send you home everyday after work especially when you work till very late, care for your safety, protect you from all the chee ko peks, wanna be there for you etc etc etc.. -sigh- my darling is so sweet to me.. so nice to me.. i have nothing to complain about. more praises for him.
the thing he did for me today.. is the nicest ever! so sweet till i almost cried when reading it. he is more than i can ask for.. i shall type out what lao gong typed for me today.. this lovely poem..
To jun,
Oh how i wish you were here today..
in my arms as i admire your beaute..
it fills my heart to see your smile..
it kills me so just to see you dull..
you opened my life from a shell..
you gave me courage to swim the nile.
Your love so great.. i want to tell..
the warmth in me when i fell..
in love with you and forever i shall.
With Love,
kev
-sigh- what a wonderful guy to have.. a wonderful guy in my life. someone who not only save me from misery and frequent isolation of myself, he is also someone who loves me more than anything else. darling.. im so touched by everything you did for me.. i love you always.
shweet dreams;
9:41 PM
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jeudi, juin 02, 2005
yo! went to np today to meet baby at 1030am.. he brought me around the school.. went to the library then went to canteen 1 to meet charmaine. grr.. charmaine bought her lunchie there already. and she's with her frens so baby and i decided not to join. and we went to the clubhouse to eat. wahhh e dory fish is niceee.. plus e water chestnut drink keke`.. den waited for baby at his school's study area. 1 hr really machiam 1 yr. den when he came down then i realised that one of his female classmate was there as well. anyways after his lesson, we made our way to orchard.
bought tickets at Lido to watch Madagascar. lol. funny movie siah. laugh until can die. baby and i went to cold storage to buy food in. haha.. "smuggle" the food in. hahaha.. nice movie i can say. highly recommended.
then we went to wisma roof top. first time went there. den go home. i tell u.. i hate ah peks! even when im with babyboy.. they just keep looking! baby saw it also. what's there to see? i really feel like gorging out his eyes. maybe i should get a penknife with me throughout the day. why is it that even with darling oso got ppl wanna look at me? no wonder baby ask me to tie my hair up when he's not with me. if not i really become "uncle killer" hahahha. =.= so many ppl say im "uncle killer" si uncles.. dun look at me can die ar?
when i was at my house lift lobby i did not enter the lift.. reason is mainly because i hate to go in when there's an uncle there. haha i dun like to share lift with strangers. den baby and i sat at my house downstairs.. den suddenly my mum reach home and saw baby! hahaha... baby called "auntie" so softly.. and my mum said "hi" so softly.. hahah.. both of them =.= den my mum smiled at him twice.. hmm.. hope that she feels ok with him and me together. haha as in see kevin den feel that he's nice guy.. hope so yeah. haha at least by luck mummy saw baby.. no need scared this scared that liao. LOL!
shweet dreams;
10:44 PM
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