lundi, juin 13, 2005
-sigh- should i or should i not go to aussie? my greatest wish and hope is to go to aussie to further my studies. but baby dunno if he can make it there as well. 4 years. it's such a long time. many things can happen. by just telling darling about going to aussie.. he suddenly become so down. he thinks that i might forget about him etc. thing is.. i wont.
darling is the best-est guy i've ever met. the one who treats me well.. he is afraid that i will find someone better at aussie. same course, same interest same this and that. -sigh- baby have low confidence in himself. i wanna tell him that i love him always. and that i wont look for other guys. yes i wont look for other guys. but feelings this kinda things is hard to say. i dunno if the love will still stay even after 4 years. of cos, i would like the feeling to stay cos being in love with him is the best feeling ever.
and because of mentioning aussie to him, baby starts to think a lot and went to bed early. he asked me not to talk about aussie anymore. but what if 1 day i really fly.. and i dun tell him? not possible right? baby, u just have to face the fact that i might be flying over to study. baby, u can make it there as well :) i'll wait for euu there. if both of us pass the obstacle, i know that we'll be together forever.
studying in aussie is not confirmed yet. it's jus a plan. a plan to go. money, results and the acceptance by the university is yet to be confirmed. the above 3 are the crucial factors. without these 3 factors, i can just forget about going to aussie to study. well.. im still contemplating.
should i go or should i not? am i really going to do something that has gotta do with nutrition in future? i will definitely regret if i dun give it a shot and try to see if the university accept me. if it doesnt, at least, i wont regret. God, please help me.
shweet dreams;
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