mardi, mai 31, 2005
today is the last day of may. oh manz. time flies.. in a blink of an eye.. it's june now. and in 29 days time.. baby and i together for 6 mths le!
past few days aint that good. cos i hurt baby.. i made him feel sad.. -sigh- anyway bad stuffs dun wanna say liao. baby and i happy again.. hehe.. meeting him on wed, thurs and fri. next thurs.. i purposely change off days with shuyi jus to meet baby =.= cos he tt day no school.
okays research time. baby must be sleeping now! zzzzz...
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jeudi, mai 26, 2005
pain! got an ulcer in my mouth.. =.= baby u gotta be careful.. u gonna get ulcer too.. hahaha.. i saw
her pics in his com. lucky baby say can delete. i shall delete the pics during the next trip to his house. i asked baby if she went to his house before or not.. he said yes only to watch movie. i asked if he and she got behave like the way baby and i did.. he said no. hopefully true hor!
got a huge
shock today. saw mum's fren in the bus, of cos, i pretend to look away pretend that it's not me. scary kx. dun wish to think again. then went to baby house oso tou tou mo mo.. going home that time.. baby said he saw his dad's car.. den both ran up the block again =.=
this kinda secretive life is gonna continue till 21 yrs old. =.= but will i be in singapore then? either a yes or a no. if it's a no.. i gonna be outta country for 4 years. 4 years! can you believe it? kevin better not be fooling around. if not he'll be castrated by me =X haha.. lame..
ok research time.
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mercredi, mai 25, 2005
updates: finally did quite a lot of sales! and there's a customer who thought im a university student there for attachment. lol. do i look that old? or i look smart? most likely smart lah hor?..
michelle so funny.. im like talking to mich thru msn now. she called weeming, uncle ming HAHAHA.. so damn funneh.. hahaha..
baby was being sweet to send me home last nite even though he gotta go school today. and took a cab home =.= baby din tok much last nite.. i think he's tired bahx. sad siah, he oni know 1 fella from his class. cos all his frens all different class as him.. see him tk lunchie alone.. i feel sad for him oso.
tml gonna meet baby le. :) go baby house. i wanna watch "finding nemo"!! michelle highly recommend this. well yah. i haven even watch that movie at all.. go baby house watch lor. most likely end up luan luan lai again. i love the way he hugs me, kiss me and touch me. =X haha..
this michy is sooooo kawaii! this is part of the conversation:
Mich says:
be careful of your LOL , Mr Goh fell in love with it
JayoUanN 'n' BabykEv //* .................................... (Offline) says:
HAHAHA
Mich says:
laugh somemore
JayoUanN 'n' BabykEv //* .................................... (Offline) says:
i laugh in com lei he cant hear de hor?
JayoUanN 'n' BabykEv //* .................................... (Offline) says:
haha
Mich says:
you never know
-grinz- Mr Goh is the big boss of the company.. likes my laughter and smile? haha weird. better not let baby know this. if not he sure jealous. but i oso jealous! everytime he rest his eyes for 30mins den he will look out of window. and he noticed a family with no curtains and there's a chij girl in that room. =.= si baby. yao si le. dare to look at other girls. den i give him one "smelly" face den he laugh =.= lameeeeee..
k i go do research le. haha.. tata~
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vendredi, mai 20, 2005
yoyo! went to library with my darling baby today~ he woke up early. lucky i gave him a call to ask if he wanna go out. haha and he went. baby is late late today!! made me wait for him for 15-20mins. went library and he borrowed books under my name =.= cos he isnt the library member =.= still dare to tell me say,"you tell me which guy is a member of the library?".. lame hahaha..
went to mac shared lunchie together. haha.. and baby said that he's my walking atm. hahaha cos i din have enuff money to top up my farecard. den he gave me 10bux to top up hahaah end up i had to look for atm machine to return him that 10bux. den we went his house and took fishing rod and stuffs. his doggggg is sooooo jealous when she sees me there. haha and she showed attitude to baby hahahah.. den went to seletar jetty there fishing..
anyway i am damn pissed with my mum. damn damn pissed. sometimes she make me feel that this relationship is accepted. sometimes she DUN! since when fishing is an ah beng's activity? maybe the places there are "dirty" but also cannot say fishing is very beng-ish wat. damn shit
hai she's making me feeling that i'll have lotsa trouble in this r/s. wats this nonsense. God, i really pray that everything will be well for me and baby. I hope that my parents doesnt interfere much with what i am doing. i seriously need somemore freedom! i really want to be with him but my mum has been making it seems so gloomy ahead. wats she going through? menopause? her mood is damn unpredictable. still ask me stop studying and say hope my result will suffer. =.= i hate this i hate all these. God, please help me..
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mercredi, mai 18, 2005
today was supposedly my off day! but since office requires me to go back.. so i had to go. if dun go.. they'll suffer losses? nevermind lor. jus go back wont die. :) anyway, did some accounting in office. i never learn accounts before! ok got ferling aka bambi to teach me. haha.. then at least i learnt some stuffs. and it's so fun to work with them manz. forever laughing until i can really go crazy. haha.. all lamers, crappers and jokers. haha.. tml gotta work whole day.. 930am till 10pm. hope baby meets me and sends me home. 1 week no muacks no hugs le. cannot like that!! =X
added michelle, weeming and ruth into my msn account haha.. was talking to weeming jus now online haha for a while only.. he not as free as me i suppose.. hahah.. went to jacks place for lunchie with them. they were so envy of me cos i had student set lunch and it's
damn cheap hahaha.. sad sad.. ruth and mich saw baby and my pic. haha.. ruth said got
husband and wife look.. hahahha o.0
and i went to indivi with them to check out the price of the clothes and of cos i remember to check the price of the cardigan which i loveeeeee so much. and it's like? $155.00
damn ex! with 10% discount makes
no difference =.= anyway i dun think im gonna buy that. too expensive.. baby asked me how much is that cardigan a few days ago. i dunno so i din tell him. hahah.. sekali i tell him den he go buy. but so ex.. i doubt he'll buy oso lah. the material of the cardigan isnt worth the cost of it. can easily found anywhere at a cheaper price. it's the design that im paying for.. so no point.
anyway gotta sleep soon.. hope my dad doesnt see me tml wif kevin wong. if not i'll be in deep shit. oh God, please help me~
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lundi, mai 16, 2005
i did bio energy test today. and darn.. it says that my biological age is
93 years old!! very old right? so guys.. whenever you see me around, you jolly well give me a seat.. cos im fragile. wahhah.. im an old lady already kays. but wells, anyway.. it aint accurate. reason being my boss "fed" us too well. hahaha.. cos he treated me and shuyi dim sum for lunchie. he bought 3 siew mais, 3 plates of chee cheong fun (char siew, prawns and mushroom).. and 2 big bowls of century egg porridge. we have a small lil bowl to scoop the porridge and put into the smaller bowl. boss only scoop 1 time, shuyi oso scoop 1 time. then the remaining porridge is i finish up. approx. 5 to 6 bowls. =.= makes me feel like a
glutton.. and i ate 2 charsiew and mushroom chee cheong fun.... plus a starfruit mix with green apple juice. and i cant really walked after that. even when i was walking to the bank, i almost sprained my ankle.. =.=
for the bio energy test to be accurate, you have to fast for at least 5 hours and the best is fasting overnight. well i was jus "fed" too well. and hence results aint accurate. so i guess that if i had fast, my biological age will be much lower than 93. and that's what michelle said as well. haha..
and manz.. in 1 week, i gained 1 kg. oh man oh man.... at this rate im eating, im going to grow fat soon. ok at least stop at 40kg. i dun wan anymore weight lol. im like 36kg now. my weight is like
fluctuating! up and down and down and up. zzz... told baby about boss treating me dim sum. den he told me to be careful and he is starting to dun like my boss. lol. 1 boss treat me dim sum, another boss said that my laughter and smile make him happy and wanna laugh. lol.. den i dunno which boss baby doesnt like wahahhaha.. and of cos, baby, i wont allow them to drive me home :) cos it's only you who can send me homeeee... den muacks muacks right? keke`
man.. my heart very itchy. feel like buying the cardigan i saw at indivi when i was on my way to office everyday. it's like having
sales now! i really wonder how much it costs... i really feel like buying it... cos it's so darn nice!! i told baby about it. hahaha. but if he buys for me ..i will feel paiseh. cos he everytime spend so much on me..
k today is the first day of releasing that stupid project pbl problem statement. gonna find out where on earth can i get that question. im darn tired. the analysis also ask me to sleep more.
WAHAHAHAHA
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samedi, mai 14, 2005
woke up darn early today.. was forced by my mum to go down and buy breakfast.. the reason is because i walk very fast =.= saw ann.. she was wif a guy so i presume that he is her boyfriend bah haha.. then went and meet my grandparents for lunchie. i ate crab and tt stupid crab leg flew out of my hand and finally land on the floor. damn paiseh siah.
baby wanna me go for saint's bbq. i really dun wanna go.. firstly i dunno them, secondly, im really tired. i dun wanna go den he dun wan tok to me liao. mayb he felt bad cos i rejected him and hurt his ego? and that's how i feel when he used to reject the idea of meeting me when we were jus together. but i still talk to him lei.. guysssss... maybe they are more petty than girls bah.
hmm.. sometimes im thinking like should i post a more meaningful blog rather than a blog which depicts my life.. manz i dunno. baby said he wont force... but he like tt dun tok to me cos i dont wanna go for that bbq.. oso indirectly forcing me wat. hai dunno wat's with him lah. if like tt i think tml he wont send me home again liao. he wanna me meet his frens i think.. but i still feel that now i really cant. not jus that it's late.. and i also quite tired lei.. hai baby can u jus think about me as well? -sigh-
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vendredi, mai 13, 2005
did not come online yesterdayyy.. i was darn tired after working for like 13 hours! i received
many many compliments yesterday. first it came from the big boss of the company. he said that of the years he've been working and in his whole life the sweetest smile he has ever come across is my smile. oh my hahah.. my smile and my laughter to him.. is infectious. not only that it also looks innocent. wahahahah.. he said that when he see me laugh, he also felt happy and cant help but to laugh as well. then all my colleagues including the supervisor ask me to laugh and smile more cos the boss likes HAHAH. lame. then got people say i look slim and miao tiao.. den say my handwriting nice.. den buy food oso got discount lolx. den everyone say.. not fair! next time dey ask me buy food den all got discount. lolx. the sweet sweet girl --> me. hahahaha.
so so so happy that baby met me yesterday and sent me home. keke`.. though this is not the first time. but i'd really like to express my feelings. felt so loved and stuff like that with him around me keke` saw hannah after work when i was walking to take mrt with baby.. she smiled at me.. haha. well anyway we didnt talk cos i was with baby and she didnt wanna disturb us i guess hahah.. and whilst in the train, this stupid ah pek who was standing opposite me kept looking at me siah. so pissed off and i turned away and tell kevin. den he stand right in front of me so that the ah pek cant see me. hahah..
missed a few bus.. cos i dun wanna go home and leave baby so early. did the usual same things. hahah.. and everytime we meet, confirm have kissing and hugging. it's going to be perfect lol =x hahahahh.. and there's a cat peeping at us while we're kissing... and the cat knock onto the wall.. wahahahahahaha.. zzz. cute lil kitty.. i miss kissing baby.. love to do french wif him =x hahahha.. i love the way he kisses me.. my ears.. my forehead, my head, my cheek, my mouth, my neck. oh myyyy.. hahah..
r(a)! dun read! i seriously had thought of settling down. you must be thinking. wat! at this age?! well.. yah. thought of
settling down with kevin.. feel like being with him forever, having our own family, our own house. but certainly, before all these we must have income first. arghh. i dunno haha still have a few years more. i feel that i wanna be with babyboy for the rest of my life. i dun wanna change liao. cos he's all that i can ask for. he's someone who is willing to change and do anything for me. someone who can remembers my likes and dislikes, someone who cares for me, cherish me and protect me. he has
all the qualities im looking for.
i love him lotssss..
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mardi, mai 10, 2005
went out with baby today. met at 845am bcos we were both early. lol. he said he walk until damn slow and missed 5 trains and still he's earlier than me. wahahah.. took breakfast at home and then meet him that time eat sausage mcmuffin and a cup of orange juice. damn full i tell u. den we walk around den went to buy tickets to watch "house of wax" but then i did not bring identity =.= cant watch that movie in the end.
-sigh- we end up watching "coach carter". -ratings: not bad, can inspire u in some way or another-
baby and i sat at the last row. haha and we thought the whole cinema will be ours until a mother and son entered the cinema? sianx. and after that another man enter the cinema.. =.=
i shant carry on about the nitty gritty details in the cinema etc. anyway after the movie we went walking around ps for a while before heading to og orchard to have our lunch. haha it was raining somemore... shared umbrella wif baby.. oh so romantic. lol.. after which we walked to taka orchard library.. read magazines together..
damn damn sweet.. :) den baby send me home.. he cant walk me till my lift. cos im afraid that my dad sees us. so we took bus to singapore poly den walk from singapore poly to my house. a long long way... cant bear to part hahah.. cos we enjoy each other's company.. :)
anyway meeting baby on thurs. he's gonna send me home keke` and he will take cab home. damn.. feel so bad, so heart pain. he spend so much on me siah... if i were him i bu she de to spend hahaha.. =x think our relationship will be known to his mum and my dad is when we're 21 yrs old. when things are more stable or something. unless kena found out before the age of 21 lah.. den i dunno liaox.
anyway a great day with baby today. wonder if baby is able to continue to send me home even when school starts. maybe during my off days i can go his school? hahah.. dunno..
-shrugs- but if he cant or something.. it's all right. cos studies come first.. right baby? :) we must both do well manzz..
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lundi, mai 09, 2005
ok anyway.. baby and i talked again. think like oni 2 bad days. but errrr.. i dunno. now better a bit lah. dunno why but im feeling kinda uncomfortable. -shrugs-
meeting baby tml at 9am at dhoby gaut gonna watch movie. just pray that my dad or my uncle doesnt bump into us..
god please help meeeeee.... i at first tot tt he just cancel this meeting when i say i wanna reach home by 8pm. wellsssss miscommunication again. thank goodness i didnt get angry or whatever.
i think my dad is like more or less suspecting that im having a relationship liaox. damn he jus keep warning me non-stop. and is like.. manzz.. i dunno how to explain. oh God.. please help meeee pretty pleaseeeee!!
my SIP so far so good. hope i'll be given a chance to go to thailand to discuss business....... hopingggggg.... my colleagues are pretty fun people and pretty lame too. the younger ones lah haha.. just hope for the best in everything bahx.
prays hard.
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samedi, mai 07, 2005
today is my sec sch principal mrs caroline lee's death anniversary. hope that she's now next to God and is very very happy now.
Man.. im feeling so hurt.. so hurt by the stuffs he said yesterday. not gonna touch baby anymore.. this sentence has many meaning to it. and i see it as a whole. the "
touch" word. sounds like im a thing and not a gf. sounds like he's not gonna hold my hands. sounds like he doesnt wanna see me. i dunno. he said he never forget abt it. but i mean.. he could decipher that wat i said was because of "if he do a certain thing, then i wont tok to him" it doesnt mean that i'll not talk to him for nothing. is he too petty or too sensitive? whatever it is, his words hurt me too much. i dun wish to give up on this relationship. i dunno why.. i jus dun feel like talking to him, dun feel like seeing him.
i
doubt he is also gonna give me a msg. whatever the outcome is.. i also wont msg him. his words jus keep singing in my mind again and again. im too hurt too sad till i cried to sleep last nite.
emotions overwhelmed me. i may look strong and independent. but when it comes to emotions, im not at all strong. unless he apologise for the stuffs he said and come talk to me automatically. if not, this will jus carry on like that..
a cold war. i wasnt even fighting with him and why he told his frens that we're fighting? we aint even arguing or quarrelling. wonder when this cold war will end.
certainly, i wont be the one giving in. afterall, to me, he reads too much into the words which
wont even take place. i aint angry.. it's a misunderstanding afterall. wat hurts me most is wat he said. to think that this actually come out from the one u love. mayb he and i not meant for each other. mayb it's coming to an end
-i hope not- .. mayb we were wrong to be together in the first place.
i hope all these "mayb-s" are not true.
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vendredi, mai 06, 2005
im hurt.. im
very very hurt. im disappointed. i didnt know that u can be so petty abt things i said jokingly and things i never meant. is it that you were too sensitive or is it that you dun understand me at all?
i cant remember wat i said cos normally joking stuffs i dun remember. even though i said sorry.. u din say anything. u even said smth which hurt me so much. im very very very hurt by wat u said. i dunno if u mean it but i took the words literally word for word. i dun feel like talking to you liao. im jus too hurt. the reason i did not flare up is because i know it's a misunderstanding and i say sorry and yet u said those hurting stuffs.
if you dun wanna talk i also wont force you to talk. i also wont talk. im jus too hurt. too hurt.
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to beehong: i dunno if u read my blogs haha.. and becos i've got so much to type that's why i din type in ur tagboard. my dear girl, dun ever give up on urself. i've ever been so dejected and always wanting to give up on everything i do. but think about it. if u give up on ur studies dont u think that it's a stupid thing to do? exams come only once. try ur very best to do whatever you can. try telling urself that the bad part of life is going to be over soon. reassure yourself that it's part and parcel of life. shits do happen in life. pick urself up and move on. instead of torturing urself suffering in sadness and pass each day, why not be happy and pass each day? try darling. it's e right move to turn to God and ask for help. im sure that He will help you. and of cos, you cant and dun give up upon urself. working life isnt aint fun at times. dun say urself not intelligent enough or no knowledge. no one ever knows wat their talent is or wat they are good in until they try. it's for us to explore and find out, girl. everyday is a new day for us to learn new things. im sure u can do it. tell urself "tml will be a better day". i hope and pray for the best in you. dont ever give up okays?
ok.. and now a lil on my life. hah.. packing the storeroom which was initially filled with cartons isnt a simple chore. carrying the cartons to and fro. emptying the cartons and pack them on the shelves. removing the supplements put into cartons, and arrange it again somwehere. after packing and continue arranging the supplements and vitamins according to the alphabetical order and found out that there is another carton of supplements which as been packed on the shelves long ago.. when that happens. it's definitely like shit. cos there isnt much space left. and darn it comes to my problem solving skills hahaha.. climbing up and down the ladder. esp yesterday arranging the stuffs alone from 9am to 6pm den rush to retail shop till 930pm. and wat makes me happy is that my supervisor, boss and colleagues praise us for doing a
good job! and keep saying very good.. keke`.. very happy.. baby reached the retail shop at like 9pm. so darn early. end work at 930pm and he reached at 9pm. so this shows that im not late. it's he is early!
when closing the door, accidentally
"kiap" my hands in between the door. den kena internal bleeding. damn pain. 1 line of red red thing on my palm. hurt siah. den i tell baby.. den baby say.. huh why? den rub rub for me hahaha.. so sweet.. haha.. den he have to send me home immediately. lol cos my mum says so. met baby for like 1 hr only. but a great 1 hr. i think people in the public were like looking at us most of the time. cos we were hugging in the train ahhaha.. dun dare kiss in public hahahha.. at e most it's like my house downstairs den ya lah.. hahah..
oh wells i jus love him
so much. talking to charmaine now. haha.. wondering when's delvina asking us out.. hur hur.. den ask leefei along.. haha see if i can get kevin along as well.. oh wells like that den we might as well plan a chalet or smth like that? hahah so who wanna plan a class chalet? hahah..
love baby lotsa~
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mercredi, mai 04, 2005
hows working life my frens? mine is pretty good.. so far so good.. got muscles le siahhhh.. cos i gotta carry heavy cartons.. not too heavy to the extend that i cant even carry it for a short distance or lift it up. and of cos when there's sucha carton i will ask for help. like duh.. hahh..
happy happy.. met baby today.. and gonna meet him tml. he gonna send me home after work. haven been in office today.. and yesterday. and i was at the retail shop for a few hours. pretty all right with some quite sucky customers. well these are already expected so not that bad at all.. jus love baby.. love life the way it is now. pretty good colleagues, pretty good supervisor and pretty good bosses. so far so good. :)
loves babykev lotsa.. muackss~
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lundi, mai 02, 2005
and yes.. it's the month of may now. time flies.. it certainly flies too fast. i wonder if the time really pass faster compared to the past or is it that i've lotsa work to do ,and therefore, i feel that time flies too fast..
-ponders-met zhenhui ytd.. lolx and got my prezzie.. and man.. it's a
big one! a soft toy bear from precious thots and a box of sweets from precious moments. i think these stuffs dun come cheap. anyway i jus feel so loved. lolx.. bought a black pants which cost a bomb! 83 bux. like what the hell lor. but i have no choice but to buy.. cos it's so difficult to find pants, skirts of my size. damn. then went to grandparents house alone to take dunno wat cd my sis wants from my uncle. when my relatives reached my grandma hse. all ask me.. "eh junhui, the lecturer from ur sch uh?" -diaox- so obvious lor. so embarrassed to have a lecturer like darwis siah.. zzz... everyone is talking about him.. baby said that he's singapore's michael jackson. lol..
went to crystal jade to take my lunch today~ yummyyyy love that double boiled hashima.. soooo delicious~! eat until very full siahx. tml gotta go for work le. my oh my.. what's my pay gonna be like? hope my colleagues are easy to get along with.. easy to work with. the girl who is going to the same company as i am is someone i dislike liao lor. wah biang. forever whining. can u jus live each day without whining?! worked with her for project.. can really vomit blood. baby knows about it cos i always complain complain wahahha.. hope this girl dun keep coming to me asking me this and that. jus dun stick to me. rather be alone siah. ohhh and baby is going to send me home from work tml~ yay.. can see baby again! but tml cannot stay out late le worx. take dinner le must immediately go home.. wednesday still got work..
bought a top from bum equipment today! daddy paid for it. lol. got sales siah... wahahhah.. saw so many things i like but cant buy.. cos i've got too many clothes at home and my wardrobe is packed. full. everything seems to be falling out from the wardrobe.
oh manz. im waiting for baby to come online.. quick quick.. before i gotta log off.. argh. play badminton siah he.. 1 of the sports he enjoy playing since young. okays go blog hop for a while den check other email acc b4 i say "hi" to my bed.. wahahhah.. love sleeping.. love hugging.. love kissing =X lol.. i miss the hugs and kisses from baby!!!!
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