samedi, mai 07, 2005
today is my sec sch principal mrs caroline lee's death anniversary. hope that she's now next to God and is very very happy now.
Man.. im feeling so hurt.. so hurt by the stuffs he said yesterday. not gonna touch baby anymore.. this sentence has many meaning to it. and i see it as a whole. the "
touch" word. sounds like im a thing and not a gf. sounds like he's not gonna hold my hands. sounds like he doesnt wanna see me. i dunno. he said he never forget abt it. but i mean.. he could decipher that wat i said was because of "if he do a certain thing, then i wont tok to him" it doesnt mean that i'll not talk to him for nothing. is he too petty or too sensitive? whatever it is, his words hurt me too much. i dun wish to give up on this relationship. i dunno why.. i jus dun feel like talking to him, dun feel like seeing him.
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doubt he is also gonna give me a msg. whatever the outcome is.. i also wont msg him. his words jus keep singing in my mind again and again. im too hurt too sad till i cried to sleep last nite.
emotions overwhelmed me. i may look strong and independent. but when it comes to emotions, im not at all strong. unless he apologise for the stuffs he said and come talk to me automatically. if not, this will jus carry on like that..
a cold war. i wasnt even fighting with him and why he told his frens that we're fighting? we aint even arguing or quarrelling. wonder when this cold war will end.
certainly, i wont be the one giving in. afterall, to me, he reads too much into the words which
wont even take place. i aint angry.. it's a misunderstanding afterall. wat hurts me most is wat he said. to think that this actually come out from the one u love. mayb he and i not meant for each other. mayb it's coming to an end
-i hope not- .. mayb we were wrong to be together in the first place.
i hope all these "mayb-s" are not true.
shweet dreams;
12:07 PM
