vendredi, avril 30, 2004
You are Form 3,
Unicorn: The Innocent.
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shweet dreams;
10:03 AM
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jeudi, avril 29, 2004
hi ppl!! haha a BIG thank you to all of ya.. haha.. thx for remembering my bdae n sending me a msg.. heehee.. anw went out wif my dear myra.. haha.. went for job hunting.. walked from bugis to suntec to ps to centerpoint to orchard.. tiring.. we walked till we CANT walk properly.. and we almost got ourselves lost while finding out e way to walk from city hall to PS.. we were there walking under e BIG HOT sun.. figuring out which way to walk.. haha.. like for 15 mins.. hahaha.. very hot ar.. cant take it..
i quite free lah hor.. so feel like listing out who said happy bdae to me.. wahahha.. k first.. myra, karen, adelia, angelina, terry, qian, angela tang, zhen hui, pin pin, ian ang, stella, shaun, hui ping, angel, myra again, mum, myra again, angel, angel again, evelyn seow, shu yi, kaixin, terry again, kaixin again, derek, jie hui, darshan, junfa, stella again, cherrise, wenting, ian chan, stella again, wanting, tim, ben kor, my uncle, n JESS!!! all e way from melborne. oohh i m so touched.. n this morning was jiawen, leefei n huiping again n jarrich.. hahahaha... my uncle's msg was e funniest of all.. hahahaha... say may all ur wish come true.. dun pray tt i get married ok? hahahahahahaha.. so funny.. i forgot abt tt n he reminded me tt.. hahahaha... n i asked him to go get married.. wahahahhaha... ok lame lah.. but i always make fun of my uncle one.. wahahha..
anw yesterday's bdae like what myra said.. unforgettable.. hahaha.. cos first time going out wif fren i went to hawker center and eat.. like so cheap kx.. laksa only 2 bux.. honeydew milkshake is like 1.50 cheap loh.. everytime i go out.. 1 meal cost 5 bux plus.. this time onli 3.50 haha.. and went job hunting.. OH WELL!! gotta job already!!!!!! haha marks n spencer.. myra n i.. tt lady jus called.. hurray!! how easy to find a job though.. my dad let me work there!! haha.. YAYXXXX!!! got money le!!
okok gg for interview.. gotta meet tt lady at 4.30pm.. haha think if i really get tt job.. i think i'll be seldom online le.. very tired by then.. ya.. haha.. see how see if e interview is successful or not..
anw i m so irritated wif frenster.. cos i was abt to edit my profile this morning den they tell me i dun have an acc there.. wth lahx.. go n eat e shit.. *bawl* my testimonials HOW????? all my precious bao bei... boohoo... how can u.. how can u do this to me????? but myra can see my acc profile lehx.. how come ar??? haizzz.. i also dunno.. thx to ian chan helpin me to solve those IRRITATING pop ups.. it's freaking hell gettin onto my nerves.. anw... i also dunno.. how?? to camp or not to camp? ooh i luv hello kitty.. so kawaii... dun u think so? even cherrise likes it too!! haha.. kitties kitties kitties.. i LUV animals...!!! heehee..
shweet dreams;
10:46 AM
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mardi, avril 27, 2004
kx. exams finally over.. dunno lehx.. quite a lil down.. somehow sorta kan4 tou4 someone le.. who i shall not name. sorta used to everything already. can even predict what's going to happen.. as in can guess more or less accurately lahx.. ya.. anw went to kbox yesterday wif kaxin.. sang till our lungs came out.. had an enjoyable time though.. kbox quite a few cute guys.. was pointing to one to kaixin.. din know tt there's another guy behind.. when i found out.. i was like 'opps' haha.. den tt another guy smiled at me.. and said bye to us.. siao ar.. haha.. anw tt guy also not bad.. haha.. if got chance i go kbox n work part time.. hehe.. budden there are so many ppl there working le.
anw thanks to myra, kaixin n terry for e bdae prezzie.. haha.. saw it b4 my bdae.. haha.. haven got qian's one for me.. wonder how's it like.. anw myra n kaixin (shared cost) to buy me a pair of dangling earrings from bits n pieces. haha.. thx ya.. stuffs there r quite ex.. anw i like dangling earrings too.. hehe.. i like girly stuffs.. haha.. n thx to terry ar.. tt card look so pervertic. haha.. saw tt kinda card b4 liaox.. haha.. i always go shop one mahx.. den always go see cards n such.. haha den saw this card b4 lohx.. ha.. anw thx for tt n e billabong pencil case ya.. how u know i was looking for a pencil case too? must be quite ex rightx.. anw thx ya lots.. thx to those who remembered my bdae.. =)
Aim: to be more lady-like, to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now, to be less loud ( in other words tone down).......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
[excluded (achieved): not allowing anything to bog me down, to show more attitude, to gain more self-confidence, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to have the heck care attitude at the right time] =)
shweet dreams;
5:17 PM
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dimanche, avril 25, 2004
HURRAY.. last paper last paper.. bmic.. sure stuck at topic 4.. sian ar.. what metabolic pathways.. hope e light can dawned upon me.. make me understand it by TONIGHT!! hee.. i love studying.. haha. ok sounds like one stupid nerd toking.. but i have found interest in studying *finally*.. haha.. i like studying lah.. i like e feeling of being so busy until u cant take it.. ok sounds sadistic too.. but a bit late lah.. exams going to b over.. haha..
ahhhhhh... tonight got 'jia ge you qian ren' movie. starring sammi cheng n richie ren.. haha.. i wanna watch!! watch n study at e same time.. haha.. multi-task.. ahaha... oki.. i dunno how come i pretty good mood siah.. mayb has gotten all my troubles n worries AWAY!! i gave them all to God.. hee hee..
yesterday went home wif yiming max jem n afendy.. haha dey so funny can.. make me laugh all e way.. eugene novy n sarah alighted at raffles.. yupx.. dey super duper funny.. when walking to bedok mrt station.. all of them r in front.. or behind.. one grp.. n yiming will be next to me talking.. haha.. he super lame at times.. n they keep bullying afendy.. ahhhh poor thing.. haha.. okok i m at only algae part of topic 2.. better be a nerd now.. or else 2 mths cannot be nerd.. so sian.. dunno what to do.. haha.. i only know i next hols.. going to work in nov for a week in a pri sch.. heehee.. i think a week b4 sch starts.. sian arrrrrr....
Aim: to be more lady-like, to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now, to be less loud ( in other words tone down).......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
[excluded (achieved): not allowing anything to bog me down, to show more attitude, to gain more self-confidence, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad] =)
shweet dreams;
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mercredi, avril 21, 2004
heyx ppl how's maths today? hope it is all fine for u guys.. anw ppl complaining.. haha 1) eng standard 2) Qn B1.. ans shld be dependent.. but a lot ppl wrote independent n trying to argue for marks. hmm dunno.. nc.. i only will say e eng standard.. really sux like hell.. half e time i was staring at the paper thinkin wat on earth r they talking abt????? lucky i check wif angela my steps.. heng.. quite similar.. aiya can liao lah.. can pass can liaoz..
anw i think i m quite addicted to studying? haha.. dunno why jus feel like studying day in day out.. like some nerd.. haha.. mayb to study to forget stuffs... study to not regret in future.. study to like create less troubles?? ahhhh wells.. i dunno.. hmmphx.. k lahx..
anw saw one SUPER yandao at the temporary canteen ard sports hall there.. wah seh.. when he walk in.. he already caught my attention.. cos he got tt cool element pretty similar to jay chou.. he looks a lil like jay chou but better looking.. he took the table next to me.. and it's directly diagonally opp me.. wah lah.. full good view.. haha.. den dunno how come tt aunty sat next to me opp e guy and talk to me.. ask this ask tt.. ask my course etc.. haha.. so myra n i answered.. den that guy looked up.. he look at me.. and smiled... AHHHHH.. so cute.. but still have that cool cool look.. den when he was abt to leave for the sports hall cos he having exams.. i saw him laugh.. haha.. he was wif his frens lah.. he took a table by himself. wah so cute ok.. almost went numb.. haha.. den tt myra say me.. 'bian tai de' crazy.. pls loh.. ppl chao yandao.. den she whole time keep telling me.. 'eh he come out liao come out liao..' shit siah.. when i turn ard is ah pek.. idiot.. haha.. den when i was there.. i look out.. i saw this guy pretty similar to tt yandao.. he looked into e canteen.. yupx.. he looked at me for quite long.. den look at myra.. *when he haven take his paper*.. cute cute siah.. anw i dunno him.. crazy.. for eye pleasure only.. think he business sch yr 1 or 2 i dunno lah.. i only know he super cute.. think i can recognise him if i see him in sch again.. haha..
n on monday.. ooh i saw this pretty cute guy.. not as cute as tt one in e canteen.. i was walking down e stairs to e bus stop. den he alighted bus 69.. aiya as usual lazy to run for e bus.. den he walked up e stairs.. head bending down a lil.. and he looked up.. i looked down.. oh manxxxx.. he smiled at me.. hehe.. quite cute also.. den i smile back.. HAHA.. it's courtesy.. haha.. anw i dun think i can recognise tt guy's face.. think can recognise e canteen one.. but then.. mayb not too.. haha so many things to remember.. how to remember faces.. haha c how also lahz.. for eye pleasure only.. haha.. dun think i m ready for a relationship also.. next time den say.. studies first.. dun wanna get hurt either.. yupxx.. wellx.. i think i have toned down a lot.. as in not tt loud anymore.. mayb bcos of all tt happens.. ohhhhh.. jus now jem said after exams can party.. hmm.. a party for me?? haha.. kiddin.. going out immediately after exams loh.. so shiok.. wif all my dearies frens... n tt yiming so funny.. saw me at interchange today den he smile until cannot see e eyes.. and wave at me.. haha.. so cute.. den ask.. waiting for myra ar? n myra is jus behind him.. HAHA.. funny siah.. n when alighting e bus.. afendy also there lahx.. max yiming n ziana.. den afendy call my name.. i said 'apa?' (means 'what' in malay) den tt ziana said 'he miss u' AHEM.. ar.. hmm.. cant be lah.. i jus turned ard n smile and laugh a lil said.. cant be lah.. dun be crazy.. den ziana said.. really.. hmm.. miss me ar.. haha.. saw me in sch liaox mah.. haha..
wellx.. what i think is tt afendy is quite a nice chap.. aiya everyone is nice lah.. i dun care so much liaox.. jus do whatever i like lahx.. anw i wanna go study le.. bmic bmic.. haven started.. bnf.. aiyoxxxx.. only at topic 3.. OH MANNNNN... ok after tt i m done.. a few days ONLI.. perservere.. be determined!! ok GAMBATE!!
Aim: to be more lady-like, to show more attitude, to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now, to be less loud ( in other words tone down).......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
[excluded (achieved): not allowing anything to bog me down] =)
shweet dreams;
4:52 PM
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dimanche, avril 18, 2004
this is my way to live
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haha i m a citrus.. n i m a sugar.. haha.. how kawaii can tt be.. anw forgot to thank someone too in e previous blog.. n tt is my ben kor kor.. thanks A MILLIONS.. heex.. anw.. gotta go studying.. o yay.. i m so happy.. i m going to complete food chemistry subject!! yayx.. 3/4 of the last topic to go. hurray.. went to the games room in e club hse stayed there for ard 2 h 30 mins and i m going to finish it!! haha.. like i said.. i wont let anything affect my studies.. personal stuffs and studies r 2 diff things.. i wont put it together. gong1 si1 fen1 ming2.
ok anw thanks for the quizzes from jiehui.. heyx post more quiz online kx? heex..
Aim: to be more lady-like, to show more attitude, to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now.......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
[excluded (achieved): not allowing anything to bog me down] =)
shweet dreams;
8:21 PM
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samedi, avril 17, 2004
smth happened today this morning dat affects my mood far too much to the extend tt i dun even have e appetite to eat. i dun really wish to talk abt it.. cos i've had a good long talk wif my mum, stella and qian. thx to qian for listening my probs. thanks to stella for reasoning stuffs and talk to me listen and give advice. they were useful. n my mum.. she's e one whom i talked to and feel loved.. i was so much affected by what happened n what i found out tt i m going to have a nervous breakdown and i doubt myself.. i keep asking and thinking to myself.. am i tt bad? why those ppl who dunno me dun like me? what rumours did they hear? who bad mouthed me? why they say things which r so untrue abt me? why they dun wanna know me better b4 jumping into conclusions? why if ppl dun like me den it's my character got prob? i asked my mum.. she said mei2 ge4 ren2 de4 ren2 yuan2 bu4 tong2. tts why some ppl wont like u.. den we talked abt bgr stuffs etc.. how her frens got attached.. how she first got to know my father etc.. talked abt my frens.. i told her abt yiming.. and she kept laughing.. haha.. dunno why.. she kept nodding her head.. and i told her abt yiming's character in class.. and e kind of mummy's boy he is.. so cute.. den my mum said.. this kind of guy is good.. haha ya.. i agree.. den we talked abt how my frens changed their hp.. n she shook her head.. haha. waste money she said..
she told me if ur fate is here u cant run away from it. she said if have den have dun have then remain single as simple as tt.. yes i agree. i love my mum lots.. i wont allow ppl to bully her.. she talked to me i talked to her.. i tell her abt all my frens and tell her abt most of them having bf.. she said dun look for 1 cos they have 1. ya i wont.. i promise mummy.. she said it depends on who is e guy.. ur luck n ur fate. if e guy is no good den it's useless. she said must look for good one.. etc.. said tt couples after 8 yrs of courtship can also break up. if fated to get married no matter what will get married. if not fated to get married.. now have bf also no use. she told me abt her frens and her experiences.. i really like this kinda conversations. whereby ppl talk to each other abt their experiences. my mum made me feel better.. if i dun talk to her abt it.. i'll go crazy. at least my frens tell me tt i m a real nice and sweet gal.. they assured me wif their words. dun care abt what others think abt me.. i jus have to be original. and b myself. thx to myra who told me this b4 too. today is e first day i saw my mum smile and laugh a lot. i m happy tt by talking to her abt all these made her happy. at least i made my mum's day today. =) she told me lots of stuffs which are all so precious. i shall remember it forever.
to err is human. i dunno what have i done to make ppl dislike me. anw i have apologised to those who r pissed off wif me. for i dunno what reason. jus said sorry n i m done.. i cant please everybody. not tt i choose not to please everybody. ppl jus judge me by e cover. anw whatever tts happened changed me forever. from today onwards i m a diff person. anw i wanna say a big thank u to my parents.. they spent e whole day walking ard to search for a hp wif me. n my mum esp.. looked for advert in newspapers and she knew i love flip-phones she told my dad to get one for me.. and my dad agreed.. though i haven got it yet.. i know n i think they will get it for me next week i think. samsung s500. looks classy n elegant. like i said.. i love classy, elegant stuffs. cos i m a classy gal.. i m also a girly gal.. cos i love girly stuffs.. n also sometimes a tomboy.. haha ok i can dressed up like a guy and really look like 1. tts weird but i think it's unique.. haha.. tt time i remembered when yiqian came to my hse. my mum went to e storeroom and digged out so many photo albums of me and showing it to yiqian.. haha funny right.. den qian said 'this is u? u look like a guy!!' ha ok fine.. i know tt.. haha.. anw i can look real girly, princessy, and classy too.. i love skirts.. no longer love jeans.. i only love jeans when i feel like sitting wif my legs on e chair.. haha.. but by wearing skirts.. it'll train me to be more lady-like.. this is what i hope to achieve.
anw long blog i've typed. jus wana say a big thank you to those who hear me out today or who onced hear me out and advice me on stuffs (relationships, frenship n some problems annoying me).. my mummy, yiqian, myra, stella, jiehui, karen, tim, pin^2, ian ang, angel, zhenhui, cherrise, may lian, wenting, yiming, terry. thx u all.. n i wont be e same again bcos of everything tt happens.. everything tt i have found out.. everything tt has affected me far too much. i din eat much today. cos everything tt happens affected my appetite. my parents r worried.. they tot i m not feeling well. no daddy n mummy.. i m feeling well.. yes i m hungry.. but i jus dun have e appetite to eat. emotions affect my appetite and mood. i m too emotional.. too sensitive.. while these r not very good points. but i dun wish to change it for i m who i m. these character combination makes me attractive n unique n special. not everyone ard me knows how to appreciate me n i dun blame them 4 tt. everyone is different. a long emotional blog. i dunno when i'll recover. but these will NEVER affect my studies nor my character jus tt it will b only a lil diff.. i m very special n unique in a way tt makes my surrounding frens n relatives loves me lots.. ppl who dunno me dun like me.. i dun care anymore. for all i know.. i m my relatives favourite. they love me lots.. they too also talk to me abt relationships.. esp my grandma.. at least ppl who know me loves me.. thx i love u ppl too.. =)
shweet dreams;
9:41 PM
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I am 8% evil.
I am an Angel. I rarely sin which makes my life pretty boring. But if there is a god he will likely reward me in the afterlife.
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jie hui!! finally never copy u liaox.. i m less evil hahaha... and e pic says... 'i m an angel' nice pic.. but i dunno how to use the html for blog to upload pics in here.. hahahaha...
Aim: to be more lady-like, to show more attitude, to not allow anything to bog me down (finally it din), to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now.......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
shweet dreams;
10:23 AM
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vendredi, avril 16, 2004
dun tell me what u gonna gimme 4 my bdae.. pls pls pls.. i wanna surprises.. haha.. tt myra ar.. almost wanted to tell me what she got for me.. she's gonna pass it to me on e 26th wif kaixin.. cos both of them shared e cost of e prezzie.. yupx. i at first said pass it to me when we go out or smth lah.. like after my bdae or smth.. den she said cannot.. a lot of ppl say cannot give bdae prezzie after e bdae itself. well my mum said tt too.. but i dunno why. anw.. myra said it's some thing which is 'myra-like' haha.. said it's smth classy, not very obvious.. but if dress until very nice.. den tt thing will be obvious?? haha.. den she said she wore it to sch b4.. and kaixin n i said tt it's nice. so she decided to get tt.. but still? what did i say tt was nice? i cant remember myself saying anything like tt. den she said i m lousy at guessing.. haha.. ya i dun really know how to guess.. but my feelings are 100% accurate. she said she have e urge to tell me what she got for me. but i said no.. i dun wanna know.. dun be like tt yiqian lah.. no surprises liaox.. tell me what she getting for me.. but what design den i dunno lah.. haha.. jus give me surprises can liaox.. haha..
hmm today i tot abt what i wanna buy during hols and for CNY next yr.. haha.. ok mayb u ppl think i m crazy or what.. but i think far far far.. haha.. going to get more tees.. and next CNY i wanna buy those lady-like or girly clothes.. haha.. i like those.. and mayb a set of tomboy clothes.. like those yang meh meh wear.. haha.. i think it's cool man.. so many different styles.. i wanna be different.. sometimes like a gal, sometimes so lady-like, sometimes so tomboy, sometimes so slacker.. wah cool siah.. ok enuff of craps..
Aim: to be more lady-like, to show more attitude, to not allow anything to bog me down (finally it din), to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now.......... *if i achieved what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
shweet dreams;
5:41 PM
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mercredi, avril 14, 2004
cant wait for 26th apr to come.. reason number 1... exams over~!! reason number 2.. going to kbox wif a bunch of frens.. wow wheee... i tot it was only a few of us going.. who knows angela is also pulling a good number of ppl going too.. haha.. tts great.. if only myra go.. hmmphx.. cos it's too far away from her hse.. manxxx.. haizz.. nvm anyway i've planned to go out shopping wif her.. heex.. o ya i think there are like 8 ppl going.. and overheard angela asking sarah along too.. haha.. wow so many ppl.. i'm lovin' it.. haha.. kbox kbox.. going to the cck lot 1 kbox.. well tts the best.. big and comfy and have the latest songs.. english, chinese, jap and korean.. hmmphx... mayb shall get yiming to sing the japanese song.. hahaha.. he speaks jap manx.. haha.. well i heard him sing b4.. he was sitting next to me during practical.. and we were listenin to the midis from zhenhui's hp.. den jus nice have this midi.. "first love" i heard of tt midi b4.. i like tt midi.. and jus nice it's a japanese song.. and yiming he knows the lyrics.. and he started singing.. haha.. tt guy.. then he kept singing that first love song.. sang it softly well i heard it loud n clear.. haha.. cos he's jus next to me.. den i said.. okok.. dun sing already.. i dun even understand a single word.. haha.. den he said o ok.. haha and kept quiet.. well mayb i shall get him to teach me japanese language one day.. i've always longed to learn that.
ooh lala.. and on the 27th.. going out wif my qian qian.. i like her manx.. we always laugh abt almost everything under the sun.. funny also laugh not funny also laugh.. cool right? will never forget the times we spent at mac mugging for O's and those ACSI guys.. haha.. though i know her for only like 2 yrs plus going to 3 yr in 3rd nov.. i felt that her character is almost totally like me.. well jus tt she's more fierce than i m.. always scold me.. haha.. wondering why is it 3rd nov right? cos.. tt day was st margs funfair.. and we were going home after "decorating" e "haunted house" den i asked.. "where's deb? she not here today ar?" haha.. and tt qn.. jus brought us all the way to where we r now.. our A maths lesson is totally interesting.. and there was once.. raj put us to sit next to each other.. den separated us.. *sobxxx* den we heck lah.. changed seats during lesson to sit next to each other.. and we talked abt probs.. haha.. and she this cheeky lil gal.. kept drawing my BOOK!! esp A maths book wif PIGS.. and what zai zai.. and tt pig laugh sky.. hahaha.. ok tt crazy gal.. never even gimme surprise 4 my bdae.. already telling me what she's getting for me.. I WANT SURPRISES!! surprises i mean GOOD surprises.. i dun wan those tt make me sad.. NO WAY. and she even asked me 'can or not?' siao ar.. got such thing one meh? no i want diamond can? haha.. siao.. gimme surprises lah qian.. i gave u a surprise loh.. u like tt piggy so so so so much right? hahaha.. ok lah.. cant wait to see her on e 27th.. and she might be going to the funfair on 1st may too.. kx.. too much on yiqian..
28th.. dunno what to do.. stay at home mayb? i dunno.. see who ask me out.. hmmphx.. what abt my dear myra?? well i gotta think which day am i going out wif her and tt lazy pig.. dun even wanna exercise.. haha.. feel like shopping.. she and i.. shop shop shop.. haha.. not on 28th yetx.. how on earth can i ask ppl out on 28th? siao ar.. ppl shld b e one asking me out. well yiqian actually wanted to meet me on e day itself. but too bad she have smth on last minute.. she quite sorry for tt lah. den i say nvm lahx.. den 27th lohx.. den she said ok.. and ask where to go.. how i know? haha.. tt day den come and say.. the common prob that i experienced when i m wif either qian or myra is tt.. we forever dunno where to go and eat.. haha.. ok enuff..
29th onwards dunno what to do.. rotting away at home mayb.. sometimes go out wif qian.. sometimes wif myra.. well who wanna go out can ask me out also lahx.. so boring at home.. but some days i prefer to stay home.. sleep sing blah blah blah.. o ya and search for the key where i forgot where on earth i placed it.. and i cant open my LOCKED drawer.. wif all the gifts inside.. oh man.. e musical box. e dunno what bear figurine.. some letters.. an IMPT diary.. and a hello kitty file wif a lot of poems which i wrote inside!! damn it manx..
ok i gtg cheowx.. too much of my stories.. wanna study.. ST MARGS IS E BEST.. I LIKE GALS GALS GALS only.
Aim: to be more lady-like, to show more attitude, to not allow anything to bog me down (finally it din), to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now.......... *if i acheived what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
anw i had a LONG chat wif vanessa.. hmmphx.. taught her some ways to make more frens.. haha.. cos she wanna.. well i think i m special in a way tt almost everyone can get along wif me.. be it the demanding type of frens or the soft-spoken type of frens.. jus so long as u dun irritate me or whatsoever.. or dun piss me off then tt's fine.. i will treat u nice nice.. =)
shweet dreams;
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mardi, avril 13, 2004
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity..
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Heart of Crystal
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dum dee dum... i m a pure angel.. a sweet, pretty lil princess.. and where's my prince?? haha.. dun have.. perhaps not for now bahx.. i dunno.. see how.. i will react differently based on different situations. heheheahahaha.. lalala.. well haven been studyin much though.. hmmphx.. must study harder.. as for e first quizz.. who say i have a lack in social life? bullshit siah.. haha.. u dunno how many hundreds of frens i have out there.. haha.. okok.. a bit e bhb.. hmmphx.. ok lah.. wanna go study le.. jus settled tt stupid Bloodhound.Packed virus thingy.. well jus found out yesterday what is Bloodhound.Packed... it's another form of trojan horse virus i supposed.. anw.. was so freaked out yesterday by this stupid virus.. and was panicking all the way.. haha.. i really feel so helpless kx? never in my life felt that b4.. anw i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to all those who helped me yea?? heex.. ok.. thanks to: Darshan, Ian Ang, Pin^2, Teddy, Luxia, Myra.. for at least they gave me some suggestions.. helping me look for a "cure" thx so much ya?
Thank God tt i found darshan.. *hmm.. not in tt way* haha.. he is my pri sch fren.. now in tp too.. surprisingly.. saw him a number of times in sch.. but dare not called out for him.. cos i m afraid tt i called e wrong person.. haha.. same pri sch.. same sec sch for 2 yrs den i transfer.. den now? same poly.. wahhahaha.. fated.. anw he was e one who helped me solved the stupid virus problem.. is it true tt Braddell have so many IT whizzes? haha.. singjie is also another IT whizz.. ha.. but he busy accompanying his gf lahx.. haha.. anw another great news! another fren of mine is attached liaox.. heehee.. happy for her.. hmmphx.. i've been receiving many news of ppl getting attached lately.. haha.. envy and at the same time heck care.. dun wanna get hurt. i'll take whatever tt comes, will leave whatever tt goes.. walk a step at a time..
Aim: to be more lady-like, to be smarter, to be more diligent, to get fatter, to make more frens, to gain more self-confidence, to have the heck care attitude at the right time, to forget abt stuffs which makes me sad, to get back the same old st.margs character i once possess or mayb even e better, to be the usual blur blur me *like tt then cute*, to be a lil more adventurous than now.......... *if i acheived what i want, then it'll be excluded from the list* ;)
shweet dreams;
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dimanche, avril 11, 2004
computer sux..!! what's e freakin prob wif my keyboard manx.. n i cant even get into BLACKBOARD!! stupid piece of shit.. oh my.. i haven study for exams yet.. how?? oh no.. better buck up manx.. anw i hate flirty ppl.. what's life like? what's my life gonna be like? another best fren cum sister of mine is going to be attached soon.. wahahha.. ok happi 4 her.. how is it like being in a relationship?? haha i dunno.. and dun even wanna think abt it.. now exams first.. exams exams exams.. if onli we have a choice of studying and NOT having exams at all.. that will be GREAT~!! hehehaha.. oh well.. these are all fat hopes of mine.. lalala..
anw arent there any tags for me? i know tt cyc cant get in for *God knows what* reason.. she said whenever she come to my blog.. her com will get hung.. haha.. ok mayb tts true.. try again lah qian.. hmmphx.. i goin to kbox on 26th.. out wif yiqian on 27th (qian.. dun u dare tell me u have no time I WARN U).. and 28th?? haizzzz.. e most impt day is e day i m being left at home.. hmmphx.. so what m i gonna do to occupy myself on tt day? besides using e com.. i dunno.. see who ask me out loh.. keke.. ok anw better get going.. OTCM!!! what's otcm?? haha.. it's over-the-counter medication.. haha.. all abt medicines.. have to memorise e medicine names... how... boring... ok i think not only my computer is bonkers.. i m also going bonkers..
AIMS: to be more lady-like, to have more self-confidence, to smile more, to be smarter, to be fatter, to make more frens, to be more diligent.....
shweet dreams;
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jeudi, avril 08, 2004
hmm while studyin in library for bmic prac exam.. i heard this song which i haven heard for a long time.. think e last time i heard it was last year X'mas eve.. yupx and today i heard this song on Perfect 10.. and suddenly have e urge to post the lyrics but too bad i cant find e song at powerweb.. anw i changed it to this song.. Forbidden Love.. haha some japo songs.. nice ya? i love it.. can help to relax.. so sweeeetttt.. heex.. =)
anw how come my tagboard is SO DEAD?? no tags nth.. sad.. dum dee dum.. hmmx exams is round e corner n i haven started on ANY subjects.. damn.. jus keep packing notes and binding it.. hmm i think i m allergic to paper.. haha not LITERALLY allergic but mentally allergic.. haha.. cos ar.. everytime see papers.. esp bmic *i wonder why* i will sleep.. no matter how early it is.. HAHA.. hope tt i wont sleep in front of e papers anymore.. tt time do bnf test.. did e paper halfway while thinking of what the answers are.. i fell asleep.. ahah.. sit on e chair n sleep.. stupid right.. haha.. anw good luck to u ppl for exams~!! n i next week VERY free.. haha some days dun even need to go to sch.. haha.. no tut.. only 4 bmic still have tut.. sian ar.. haha.. anw at least thx for reading.. cya ppl.. and last but not least. i m loud or quite loud but not VERY LOUD!! haha.. good night sweet dreams.... *snore*....
Song : [Cradle]
Artist name : Atomic Kitten
Cradle
I will rock you like a baby, I will,
Cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
Shelter you from harm...
There will never be another lover,
Who treats you like I do,
We can drift into forever,
On a love thats made for two...
Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...
I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...
I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live,
One day without your love...
I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things...
If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,
And forever this I swear...
Dont you ever say this loves not special,
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...
I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...
I am always dreamin of you,
Hopin you are dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...
Though you say you want a love,
But you dont think you believe it,
Just open up your heart,
And you know you will recieve it...
Oh baby...
Baby...
Dont you ever say this loves not special, oh
Dont you ever think its not essential...
Baby...
I was only thinkin of you,
Hopin you were thinkin of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Agaisnt the world...
Baby...
I was only dreamin of you,
Hopin you were dreamin of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
I was only, I was only, I was only thinkin of you...
i was only, i was only, i was only thinkin... oh baby
shweet dreams;
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dimanche, avril 04, 2004
received a mail from someone i dunno.. from James Lau. i found this mail in my junkmail box. what caught my attn was e title. and i decided to open it up and see. and i saw this... i think it's really touching and made me think thru things. i pasted it here to share wif u guys.. enjoy reading~!!
Love is Patient
St Paul places “love is patient” way ahead of all other virtues like kindness, compassion, courtesy, generosity and humility. Why does St Paul stress that patience is the first and foremost definition of love? Has St Paul got it all wrong? Is love possible without patience? Is patience all that important?
In our fast paced modern life, we have to complete our projects ahead of competitors. We carry this behavior trait back to our family and we are impatient when we do not get our way. We expect our spouse to cater to us immediately after one reminder or two. When we don’t get what we want and at the time desired, we become irritated or angry. But being patient means allowing, accommodating and accepting the other person’s ideas, values, personality and mannerism. So we need to constantly remind ourselves: “Am I loving when I don’t accommodate my spouse’s ways? Do I show love when I don’t accept my spouse’s point of view?” We know for certain that we do not practice love at that particular moment since a loving heart is a patient heart.
Little things inevitably happen in our lives and in our homes. Misunderstanding and conflict come to every home. During such moments, we get angry and sulk. We tend to blame: Why must I suffer the hurt and tantrum? Why should I bear the injury? Why must I endure the accusation? Why should I accept the slight? But, for any family relationship to flourish we need patience to humbly resolve the conflict. And, patience means accepting, bearing, enduring, over-looking, suffering the slights, shortcomings, blame, accusation, tantrums, injuries and hurts, without retaliation. Thus we must regularly ask: “Am I spending time to patiently cultivate the family relationship? Have I been patient to grow our relationship? Do I neglect to improve our relationship because I am impatient?
So how do we cultivate this most vital definition of love by St Paul? In order to be able to develop this loving patience we have to learn to forgive readily and endlessly. As Mother Teresa said, “if we really want to love, we must learn to forgive before anything else.” (One heart full of love, 113) “We must make our homes centers of compassion and forgive endlessly.” (“A Gift for God”, 18) St Paul says, “Be tolerant with one another and forgive one another whenever any one of you has a complaint against someone else.”(Colossians 3:13)
The passages below are taken from the book, “Our Lady says: Love People” by Rev. Albert Joseph Mary Shamon.
Love Is Patient (1 Corinthians. 13:4)
The Greek word Paul uses for patience is makrothumei. This word means patience with people, not patience with circumstances, like sickness, poverty, or death.
Paul was writing to the Corinthians--to people who needed to have patience with other people. Therefore, to his classic description of love, we can add a preposition plus people to each of his 14 descriptive words for love. Thus, love is patient--with people; love is kind--to people; love is not jealous--of people, etc.
Charlie Brown once said: “Mankind I love; people I hate.” But it is people we have to contend with. When people get close together, there is bound to be personality friction, for no two persons are alike. Rub two pieces of wood together, and you will have fire. Put people together under the same roof, in the same office or in the same parish or in the same house, like husband and wife, parents and children, and you will have plenty of fuel for a good fight.
A feuding married couple went to a priest for counseling. The priest sat at his desk, and the couple sat opposite him, and a cat and dog sat placidly by the desk. When the priest had finished his counseling, he concluded with these words: “Joe and Mary, why can’t you get along like this cat and dog?” Joe quipped, “Father, tie them together and see how long they’ll stay that way.”
As cars need a lubricant to keep parts that rub against other parts, like the pistons in the motor, from freezing fast, so people need a lubricant to keep them living smoothly together. That lubricant is the virtue of patience.
Our blessed Lord asked us to imitate His patience. “Learn from me,” He said, “for I am gentle and humble of heart” (Matt. 11:29). Our Lord, as far as we know, never had any physical ailments. He did not have to put up with bodily sickness. But He had to put up with people.
People afflict us in two different ways: some afflict us unwittingly, and some afflict us by their behavior. I often think of how hard it must have been for Our Lord to have had only the apostles for companions. He was the Word of God, divine intelligence. They were illiterate fisherman; goodwilled, indeed, but often so obtuse when it came to understanding Him. Right up to the night before He died, He did not seem to get through to them. To Philip He said, “After I have been with you all this time, you still do not know me?” (John 14:9). The same misunderstanding surfaced again after the Last Supper when He was talking to them about their mission, So, with divine patience, Jesus finally says, “Enough” (Luke 22:38). Always, He was so gentle with them, for “love is patient.”
How often we may have thought that the people around us are stupid or do stupid things. Have you ever said, “He or she drives me up a wall!” “He or she means well, but they get on my nerves.” Or you complain, “Why they would make holy Job lose his patience.” You are really losing yours when you so think.
Then there are other people who afflict us just by their behavior. They are arrogant, self-righteous, judgmental, like the Pharisee in the parable of the Pharisee and the tax-collector (Luke 18:9-14). They look down on others, are snobbish, condemn others, spurn them, speak evil against them. That was the way most scribes and Pharisees treated Jesus.
He could have hit back, but He did not. And that is what patience really is.
Patience means accepting, enduring, suffering (that is where the word came from: patiens means “suffering”) the slights, injuries, hurts inflicted by people--suffering them for the love of God.
What makes patience a virtue is its motive: love of God. ‘‘Love is patient,” that is, true Christian patience has to be an expression of love, of love of God.
A salesman puts up with all kinds of abuse--just to make a sale.
Indians used to endure frightful tortures--just to become “a brave,”
Stoics suppressed their feelings--just to be considered “manly.”
Such endurance may be laudable, but it is not necessarily virtuous.
“Love is patient,” that is, true patience must be an expression of love, of love of God. It is that motive which makes all endurance a virtue. It is not what we do that counts, but why; not the mountains we move, but the motives that impel us to move them.
True Christian patience puts up with others just as God puts up with us. He lets His sun shine on good and bad alike and His rain fall on the just and the unjust. (Matthew 5:45). With God there is no favoritism (Romans 2:11).
Christian love must be like that. God loves all and always has their highest good at heart. Our Lady at Medjugorje repeatedly answered, when asked about her love for a particular people or nation, that she is the Mother of all and loves all and wills the salvation of all peoples. Christian patience must be like that--an expression of a love that is Godlike and Marylike.
We need patience just to survive--for people are people. Some will be inconsiderate, some will be downright mean and selfish. And we shall inevitably run into such people. Their meanness and inconsideration could make us sad, depressed or discouraged. If we let that happen, life for us will come to a standstill. ‘‘Sorrow,” said Paul, “brings death” (2 Corinthians 7:10). Sirach said it does no good to yield to it (30:23). Shakespeare called sorrow the enemy of life.
Patience, on the contrary, does not just endure hurts and injuries; rather it embraces them with love and so sucks out the venom in them. Instead of sorrow, there is joy--joy in knowing that evil has been turned into good.
Without patience we will not survive in life. I remember flying from Chicago to Kansas City one summer. It was the bumpiest ride I ever had. The wings flapped like a seal before breakfast. I thought the plane would fall apart. Later, I learned that elasticity had been built into the wings on purpose. Had the wings been rigid and inflexible, the sudden stresses and strains from wind and air pockets would have snapped them.
On their drawing boards, engineers call this give and take “tolerance.” Tolerance is the amount of stress a wing can take before it snaps.
What engineers build into the cold end of an aluminum wing, we must build into our hearts. How many homes have been broken up, because there is no tolerance---no give or take, no patience.
Aesop has a fable titled, “The Oak and the Reed.” In a mighty storm the proud Oak said, “I will not bend before the wind.” Then a sudden strong gust of wind came and uprooted the unbending Oak. As the Oak lay prostrate on the ground, it saw a tiny reed swaying in the storm. The Oak asked, “How is it that I who am so mighty have been uprooted, whereas you who are so frail still stand in the storm?’’ The Reed answered, ‘‘I give in a little to the wind.” How often just to give in, to say, “I’m sorry,” has saved many a relationship.
Patience is not weakness; it is not becoming a door mat. It is an experience of such great love that it wins over people. No person ever treated Abraham Lincoln with greater contempt than Edwin Stanton. He called Lincoln a “low cunning clown.” He nicknamed him “the original gorilla.” Lincoln said nothing. Instead, when he needed a Secretary of War, Lincoln appointed Stanton, because he was the best man for the job. He treated Stanton with every courtesy.
The years wore on. The night came when Lincoln was assassinated. The body of the murdered President was taken to a little room. That night, Stanton looked down on the face of Lincoln in all its ruggedness; and, through tears, Stanton said: “There lies the greatest ruler of men the world has ever seen.” The patience of love had conquered in the end.
It is only patience that will help people become better than they are and make us better than we are.
Like the shaft of water hitting the turbines at Niagara making them move, so love not striking back moves people toward God and toward one another.
I do not want
The bravery of those
Who, gun in hand,
Rush forth to slay their foes.
Not hatred, greed,
Or glory of conquest,
Would I find rooted
In my human breast.
But this, 0 God, I ask:
“Please make me strong
To offer love to those
Who do me wrong.” (5-10)
shweet dreams;
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samedi, avril 03, 2004
whatever tt happens happened.. there's nth i can do to turn back e time. my eyes are like a total goldfish now. hope my mum wont ask me why. haiz. what's e use of havin hope? when nth ever comes true.. actions speak louder than words.. jus dun like whatever is happening ard now.. mayb u ppl can even see me cry suddenly.. so emotional now.. even by listening to songs, typing mail, reading diaries, sms-ing.. i also can cry.. i need a shoulder.. who will lend me their shoulder? i need someone to give me a hug now.. to assure me tt everything will be all right. who can give me one? or mayb i jus have to turn to my bolster and hug it..
life sux
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vendredi, avril 02, 2004
changed e blog song.. this is my fave song since 5 yrs old.. heehee.. top of e world..
"i'm on the top of the world looking, down on the ocean and the only explaination that i can find. it's the love tt i've found ever since you've been around, your love put me at the top of the world"
love it manx.. anw.. pls forget whatever tts happen.. by brooding on it too much and thinking abt it will only affect us.. i dun wanna anything horrid happening to us kx? happy days to everyone..
lets enjoy this song which is very familiar to every single one of us.. "Top of the World" by carpenters.. =) cheerios...
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