vendredi, janvier 30, 2004
i feel stupid.. i feel sick and tired of it.. who can understand how i feel?
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9:28 PM
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jeudi, janvier 29, 2004
hey guys.. smth i think is meaningful from the bible and wld like to share it wif u ppl...
Mark 11:22-26
22 So Jesus answered and said to them, "Have faith in God.
23 "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he say will be done, he will have whatever he says.
24 "Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
25 "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses.
26 "But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses."
i like verse 24 the most.. so from today onwards.. i must believe that i will receive whatever i pray for and i will definitely receive it. =) think abt all these.. they are all so meaningful to me.. what abt u?
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10:24 PM
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mercredi, janvier 28, 2004
hix.. dunno what mood am i in now... perhaps it's jus another mood swings... it was ok this morn.. budden my mood jus start to turn lousy as the time pass... jus feel so stressed up and stuffs.. jus feel like sleepin not not wake up at all.. well.. happen to see jem on my way home.. so took bus wif him and myra... then took train wif him... he was going to town.. while on our way there.. he said," Vdae coming liao.. so what are u going to do?" ok frankly speaking.. i was like blurred for a while.. thinking when's Vdae... ok then i answered him," nahx.. what can i do on Vdae? i have I-guides going on.. the open hse.. for one whole day i guess.." and then ard a minute of silence and i continued.." anyway no one's asking me out.. so nth much also lor.." ok and i start to think.. Vdae is jus a day to me.. it doesnt hold any significance to me at all.. cos i have nth to expect from.. perhaps what qian and i thought and talked abt last year might come true... what else can i do besides having fun wif the secondary kiddos on that day? what can i expect on that day? answer is nothing.. i can expect nothing at all.. lovers and couples are all thinking of what to buy for their special one on that day.. how busy.. and this myra.. she asked me what to buy for her bf.. how i know? like i have a bf.. but i can give her an idea or two.. perhaps we'll go shop next wed.. i have no tut.. so lesson ends at 12.. i doubt she'll have hers too.. so we can go buy stuffs... i feel like buying more tops... those tees.... so many blouses.. but not enuff tees.. sianx..
Vdae.. only received chocs from my gfs from smss... early in the morning, everyone's table will have a choco or 2 on their desk... some will have flowers... from gfs..and most will meet their bfs after sch... my years of vdae were jus some ordinary days passing by... if ask me anything to do wif Vdae... all i can say is.. it means nth to me.. ppl like myra will look fwd to Vdae.. and kaixin too? i wonder why.. but qian and i? we dun.. i doubt yiqian looks fwd to it.. does she? qian ar.. mayb whatever we said last year come true lehx.. again.. sianx.. remember what we did during last year vdae? from a good and chirpy mood.. it bcame like some down and grouchy feeling.. haha.. what can we do man.. haha.. but those boquets of flowers their bfs give them are nice hor.... *envy*
ok anyway i gotta get studying... haven complete my e-learning.. die... cyax.. ciaox..
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5:56 PM
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mardi, janvier 27, 2004
yoz ppl.. in sch now... saw zhi jie jus now and guess what myra said... she said " aiyo today must go pai pai.. cos i saw smth which i shldnt see.." hahahahahaha... u know what it means?? it means... that zhi jie is a ghost.. and we shldnt see him... means jian gui le.. and must pray to God.. haha... mean sia.. haha..
ok GOOD NEWS ppl!!! my frens and i were selected for the second round of I-guides.. !!! but then some of those who din turn up for the first meeting were also selected for the second round.. NO FAIR SIA~!! tian1 li3 he2 zai4? dun wanna specify names here..... think I-guides really lack of ppl.. i dun even think that there's full attendence for I-guides the previous week.. and HURRAY!! the number of frens i have in friendster is 101!!!!!!! it finally broke 100~!!!!! COOl~!! ok i m gong gong already.. ahah.. xu meng zhe.... i love their song boyfriend and shou hou...... nice sia.. have sent it to some of my frens....... gotten it from yiqian.. but what sux most is the DJ's voice which will be heard towards the ending of the song boyfriend........!!!!! YIQIAN!!!! u ruined the whole song~!!!!!!! haha.. okx.. 40 mins more to otcm tut... sian.. haven even attend a single shit of e-lecture of otcm.. and my e-learning... only completed 2.5 subtopics instead of 8.... manx.. it's due on thurs........
feelin great lately cos i get to wear all my new clothes... YAYX!! i get satisfied easily.. i m no materialistic person.. haha... more of a sentimental and practical person.. somewhere in bwtn... haiz.. dunno when then can go buy 5566 2nd album... and i realised that the second album dun have the song cun zai and chuan shuo... so shld i buy????? tell me whatcha think ya? sigh i m dead bored.. o ya gotta test to study~!! tml is my test and i have only completed half.... damn... having late nights these days.... wanna sleep more... sleep.. sleep... sleep... i dun wanna be any panda.. haha..
anyway jus glad of my life these days... jus love it~!! jus that i m havin not enuff sleep.. but that doesnt matter.. so long as i enjoy my life.. anyway will b 18 this year.. so erm..... shi2 ba1 yi4 duo3 hua1... haha... o ya.. haven been exercising... wanna look for some time to go to gym.. train up muscles... i like muscles.. haha.. but not too much of it.. wanna go swimming to relax myself.. moreoever if i go swimming often... i'll get tanned.. and the chlorine present in the pool will bleach my hair more.. then the hair colour will change~!! haha.. anyway my hair colour under sunlight is already brown.. jus a lil more and i'll be satisfied.. haha.. ok think i better read the notes for tml's bnf test... jus in case u peeps dunno whatcha is bnf.. lemme tell ya here... bnf is basics of nutrition in food...... haha...
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2:31 PM
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lundi, janvier 26, 2004
You are Jason Hsu Meng Zhe~You are my greatest
idol!!!!~Lucky you!
Which member of 5566 are you? brought to you by Quizilla
HAHA!! i like xu meng zhe!!!!!!! haha... look so cool~!! wah sehx... haha.. have his pic in my blog liaox.. HURRAY~~!!!! ok tml the I-guides selection will be out.. manx.. hope i'll be in.. i wanna cca points and the fun~!! ok happy days to come.. happy days to u guys... gotta get studying b4 i pengx when i see my results.. ya...
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7:05 PM
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samedi, janvier 24, 2004
yoz ppl.. HAPPY CNY!! today is nian chu san...... had yu sheng yesterday.. and last sunday.. haha.. went to God-grandma's hse yesterday.. saw some of her malaysian relatives... my mum knows them too.. they played together from young... sad i dunno them AT ALL.. ok.. this lil dog.. called wang wang.. super cute man.. it bit the paper bag my parents took to put mandrin oranges... 2 oranges bcome 1 orange.. HAHA.. and even ate the sweets... it ate the mint one.. HAHAHAHAHA... then the paper bag.. obviously torn into pieces.. naughty and cute lil dog.. haha... it kept walkin into the hse... and my god-aunt used the cane and whacked its leg... SO PAIN... i feel the pain for wang wang... so ke lian.. but the dog is REAL CUTE.. haha.. i also took dinner at their place.. so paiseh can.. lucky out of the 4 guys... only 1 at home.. that guy same age as me.. now in JJ.. heard from his mum.. he's super popular in JJ.. i think he's the most good-looking among the other 3 guys.... yupx..
went to granduncle's hse yesterday.... obviously i slept... after lunch i sat on the sofa and sleep... my cousin.. the one who's also in tp same course as me also there... her sis went out.. bro sleeping at home... ok after i woke up... my cousin and i were talking abt sch.. haha.. and friends.. and lecturers... a continuation from the first day of new year... haha.. sat down and talked abt ppl... her fren and my so-called fren... ok and then went to my maternal grandparent's hse..... wah seh... b4 i managed to get into the hse.... saw so so so so so so many shoes outside.. it really freaked me out.. all my 3 grandaunties and 2 granduncles and ALL my mum's cousins and their spouse... FAINT.. so many ppl.. plus ALL my aunties and uncles and ALL my cousins.... and then took 6 pics of the family photos... so big man.. i have so many cousins.. in the end.. my cousin, wanrong, and i plus the 2 youngest ones have to sit on the floor... man... i wear until so nice.. have to sit on floor.. ARGHHH... better than those standing... haha.. they have to squeeze man.. hahahaha... ok i m waiting to get the pics from my uncle.... then we were so bored until i asked my uncle to bring me and my cousins out... ok we went to arcade.. HAHA... i played daytona.. MY FAVOURITE!! ok i wore skirt.. my cousin.. wanrong.. wore pants... played daytona.. stupid right.. my cousin said i wear until super gu-niang.. hahaha... very lady like.. but in the end go play arcade.. so no diff lah.. HAHA.. then went to a nice park nearby to walk ard... then went home... took dinner... i ate a lot man... more than my cousin.. cos i m starving...haha.. ate and watch show at the same time.... ate a lotta ba gua.. also my fave.. after dinner.. ran into my uncle's room and sleep.. hahaha... i also slept after breakfast cum lunch at my paternal grandma's hse... so it's jus practically sleep after eating... like a pig i know.. haha..
by right i can go to KBox today de... but then so many works on hand... cant go.. so my cousins in the end also din get to go.. haha... next time lah.. during hols.. then i ask my uncle bring us go to KBox... o ya.. this grandaunty of mine... when is saw her... i forgot how to address her.. i was jus standing there saying... lao lao lao... cos i dunno if it's "ging" or "yi" then everyone in the room.. my mum's cousins all laughing.. diaox... forgot how to address my grandaunt nia mah... aiyox.... so paiseh... so many ppl.. i must remember how to address them also... most of the time.. i'll ask my mum how to address them b4 i address them sia... relatives so many.. make me blur only.. aiyox... one of my mum's cousin who is a year older than me.. went for NS liaox.. after his A's... haha.. his head botak..!! look so cute.. haha.. and his sis.. saw me forgot how to address her mum.. asked me if i remember how to address her.. i shld call her biao yi.. in the end i called her by the name lah.. who cares.. haha.. ok back to work...
o ya.. i think i dun put password thingy liao lah... haiyo. terry lah.. can get into nick's site but not mine.. nick also have the password thingy mah... haiz.... nvm... jus take out the password thingy can liaox... 5566 ROX!! i m going to buy their cd no matter what... cun zai.. chuan shuo.. boyfriend.. shou hou.... NICE!!!!!
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11:43 AM
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mercredi, janvier 21, 2004
haiz i dun think i can do well for my fc test liao.. calculation error... damn.. forgot to include the 10g into the calculation.. then everything wrong.. BUT I KNOW THE STEPS OF THE CALCULATION!!!! haiz.. nvm.. jus try not to be careless next time.. today hor.. i think i m so so so super tired until i dunno what i'm doing.. during maths lecture.. i keep copying the stuffs into the wrong blanks.. damn.. then i gave up.. and brought kaixin's paper home and copy... haiz.. and today.. ate 5 pieces of bread... a cuppa nestum... and half a packet of beehoon.. shared wif myra..
yesterday smth real real funny happened during otcm mass tut... haha... it was so so funny until myra and i cant stop laughing... abt yenny.. long story lah.. also kinda paiseh.. dunno how to type it in here.. LOLX.. even after lessons and late at night myra and i were still laughin.. laugh until backache.. and mouth ache.. and the guy pretty good looking.. a shy one too.. he also find it funny.. but he tried not to laugh.. hahaha.. myra and i laughed until yenny's face bcome so black.. hahaha... cant tahan lah.. funny then must laugh mah... hahahahahahahahahahahahah.... if i wanna laugh but ppl dun let me laugh i cannot take it one.. HAHA...
ok back to tonight... took my lunch when i reach home.. later having dinner... then my mum cooked lotsa soup.. i have to help finish it by tonight.. anyway i like that kinda soup so no harm.. haha.. i'll drink it.. ok then perhaps a lil of e-learning... and a lil of studying... then copy notes... then... help my mummy wrap angbao... then paint my nails... YAY!! my nail polish also pink colour.. hahaha.. i m some pinko kiddo.. haha.. okie think that's it for today... yiqian is calling.... man.. she forgot i have to go to sch today!!!! i told her liaox... haiz.. nvm... she's busy anyway.. so forget also not surprising... and CYC!! u stop saying sweetie here and sweetie there ok? SO MUSHY!! SO ER XIN!! i think u........ him.. fill in urself.. YUCKS!! he where got sweet siax... CYC NO TASTE! haha...
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5:22 PM
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lundi, janvier 19, 2004
i feel that i m a nobody...
i feel that i m unappreciated for whoever i am...
i feel that everyone is despising me...
i feel that no one understands how i feel towards certain stuffs...
i feel that no one bothers abt me...
i feel that ppl dislikes me...
i feel that being a loner is not bad afterall...
i feel that even if i leave this place it doesnt make a difference afterall...
i feel like being alone...
i feel like being left alone...
i feel that no one would care.... no one would care afterall...
i feel that to ppl... whatever i do is forever wrong... always wrong...
No one cares abt me...
No one cares abt how i feel anyway....
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1:09 PM
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okie.. promt thingy is backo.. dunno how come terry can get into nick's blog but not mine... wth... also same windows prompt.. same html... what's wrong wif his com sia.. so anti-me... how can! sekali i go his hse and whack his com up.. haha.. kiddin..
today? no fc and bmic tut.. so lessons start at 3.. jus go sch in the afternoon and then attend 3 freaking hours of fc prac.. and then tml? lessons from 8am to 7pm.. peng peng peng!!! tot have bmic tut today sia.. then made me chiong thru my tut wks... blardy hell.. i dunno how to do.. cos teacher haven teach.. then i was flipping thru all my notes and textbook to search for the ans... and finally i did all of it.... then i realised there's no bmic tut... freaking idiot.. anyway it's ok.. haha.. cos i know liao.. then go lecture can like slack a lil.. jus to reinforce on what i've learnt.. haha.. not bad ar? haha... done wif bmic quiz revision last week... yesterday jus took lil notes here and there... on who the hell is antonio van leeu..... dunno how to spell... also must know louis pasteur... edward jenner... and the last one is..... robert koch... koch's postulate is impt... must remember... hmm.. normal flora and transient flora... blah blah blah.. ok now must read the second half of fc notes... quiz for that is on wed... haiz.. still have make up lessons for csas on wed.. so lesson end at 2... haizzzz!!!
feel like sleeping.... *YAWNS*... dun have enuff time to study at home.. cos of e-learning and e-lecture... then all my revision is done in the train... on my way to sch.. i'll be there studying.. and when on my way home.. i'll be sleeping... then when i reach home have energy to study.. haizzz... and also on those days when i dun wanna attend any e-lessons.. i'll be studying... haiz.. where got time to sleep sia? looking like a panda soon... then still have I-guides programme... i wont regret joining.. cos it's so fun!!.. so i left with sunday and weekdays nights to do e-learning.. and research.... revise.. revise in train.. sleep.. sleep in train.. save me...!!!
ok gotta do a lil of e-learning... then go to sch le... SIAN~!! sleepy................................... still have to help my mummy wrap angbao tonight..... and watch BAO MEI LI!!! my fave.. hahaha... 5566~!!!!! HELLO KITTY~!!!!! MYSELF~!!!! haha.... okok.. siao liao.. i've gone berserk.. reason? lack of sleep.. haha..
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10:32 AM
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dimanche, janvier 18, 2004
hihi... hey i've changed the song to 5566's song... cun zai... it's also one of the song played in the show westside story... i love these songs man.. esp those songs sang by 5566... i wanna get their second album!!! haha... their song... boyfriend.. is nice!!! u guys can get many songs from powerwebmusic.com... a lot.. plenty.. and it wont take long to upload.. yupx.. will change one by one.. see when i feel like changing i'll change..
anyway yesterday's I-Guides workshop is very fun.... the mass dance esp.. made a few new frens... esp felicia and wanyi both from business sch... both of them plus myra and i make a noisy grp.. haha.. felicia and wanyi look quite alike... they also say myra and i look alike.. diaoz... haha.. we enjoyed the mass dance most cos we anyhow dance.. haha.. all the steps different from the others.. and we laughed super loud until other ppl turned ard... haha... and we were super late when others were in the hall after lunch.. we walked to the door.. then 1,2,3.. all 4 of us ran in.. haha... we all siao liao.. haha.. it's fun.. but i doubt there'll be another round of mass dance during the next workshop... we'll be going out to all over singapore to give out flyers.. yupxx.. venue will be known on that day.. yupx...
stress ar... i think i've better get studying.. finished revising bmic liaox.. i tell my mum what i learn in bmic... haha.. still have fc test.. read halfway only... ok this week... is CNY!! waited for so long... haha.. can wear my new clothes liao... YAY~!! can get to see my cousins liao... esp one of them.. we always share our stories wif each other... can eat ba gua liao.. my fave!! can see my "long time no see" uncle liao.. always go overseas to work... haiz.. but he and his bro will sure confirm disturb me... and sure play wif me... say some lame stuffs... and they 2 will start laughing.. and i'll will jus look at them... asking them "funny meh" haha.. then they'll laugh even more... my second uncle and third uncle.. plus me, my mum, my aunty and my grandma.. sure all stay in the kitchen.. and talk rots.. and then dunno what will my 2 fave uncles say abt me... everyone will jus burst into laughter... diaoz... then after a few seconds i'll laugh.. hahahhaa... otherwise.. i'll be the one saying them.. they add on.. then 3 of us laugh until siao.. my aunty, my mum and grandma wont understand what my uncles and i are up to.. HAHA!! cos 3 of us sure go ard disturb ppl.. hahahahahaha... fun sia.. i miss my cousins.. my cousins sure hor.. see me liao will say "junhui jie jie... ni zhi dao hor.... (blah blah blah)..." my family always the last to reach my grandma's hse.. then when i reached.. all my cousins will crowd ard me... haha.. and tell me many stuffs... then my uncles and aunties will ask me many stuffs... then we'll talk abt S.H.E... 5566 etc.... making fun of this male cousin of mine who's so in love wif Hebe from S.H.E.. haha.. then all of us will laugh at him.. then we'll all go to the so-called karaoke room and sing songs... haha... fun fun.. I LOVE IT!! but sure in between i sure go to either my grandparent's or uncle's room to sleep... haha.. (maternal side)... i m not that close to those from my father side..
ok anyway i gotta get studying... going out for reunion dinner later... in the mean time enjoy this song "cun zai" by 5566!! my fave boyband!! i love all those songs they sing~!!! YAY~!!! wang renfu's voice is superb!!
shweet dreams;
2:08 PM
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vendredi, janvier 16, 2004
hi ppl... ok a week is over.. and i'll have I-Guides tml... playing from 8-6.. sure kena tanned.. not a lot but at least a little... ok i have already 4 projects in hand plus a learning journal which is to be submitted next month... damn.. how busy can i get man.. and i m still involved in SO MANY programmes... guess i have to manage my time well... ok feeling pretty ok this week... except for when i have to give out notes... so damn irritated... very very irritated wif the gal called dorena.. she sux man... asked her b4 which class she's from cos i dun have her name on my class list... and she told me she's from TA03.. so it's none of my business... and now she tell me she's from TA06 which is my class.. wth man.. which blardy class does she belong to??!! and she still dare to show me attitude.. say what "i've paid the class fund.. so i shld get a copy of the lecture notes.." and i said.." but i dun have ur name in my FC class list.." and she gave me that buay song look.. and say, " i paid for the class fund already u know?" and i said.." so? jus go get a refund from afendy lah!" and i glared at her and walked away... stupid blardy idiot... stupid face of hers... whatever...jus get pissed cos of her stupid attitude she gave me... i wasnt pissed at first.. but the way she look at me.. really piss me off...
anyway this yiming.. from my class... super funny sia.. made me laugh for so so so many times.. yesterday during bmic lab... and today.. no lab.. but he came and look for me.. say what? "do u have the maths tut wks? is it behind the notes? o ya it's behind the notes" siao man.. hahaha... he asked me the qn and he answered it himself.. LOLX... and said he trusted me too much... what sai... i dun understand what he's trying to say also... siao man.. and then... after lunch.. he asked me.." where's the carbohydrate notes?" i was blurred for a while.. then he made this funny face.. expect me to be confused and blur... then i said, "what carbohydrates notes? FC one sent for printing... BNF one u have it liao what.." then he said "ya hor.. good efficient.." then i teased him..." what sia.. ownself dunno come say me.. still gimme that stupid face..." and i laughed at him... then he laugh back.. siao lah.. -.-.. haha.. so super gao xiao... he really can make me laugh until i cant stand straight.. and my face will be super red... haha.. so blur man this guy... when ask his age.. he die die also wont say.. wonder what's so secretive man... ask his sch he'll beat ard the bush to reply... sian.. i heard from other frens that he's 22 yrs old... wah seh.. he looks 17 to me only.. well.. all the best wif him during bmic and bnf lab.. haha.. cos.. during bmic lab.. he's my lab partner... and i'll sure bully him.. haha.. make him do this and that.. and make him hand in my assignment to teacher.. haha.. and make him staple the papers for me... etc... take this take that.. and clean the bench.. and i sure suan him.. hahaha... and for bnf.. he's sitting behind me.. so i can turn ard and make fun of him again.. he's a lil slow.. as in when someone says a joke.. he'll wait for 2 seconds then he'll start laughing.. SO FUNNY!!
ok enuff abt yiming... i have temporarily stop the prompt and password thingy... cos of terry... who cant even enter my blog!! so i jus take it away for a while lah... let him read first lorx.. and MUST TAG ME~!!.. ya.. i dunno whatcha say now.. haha... o ya.. 2 tests next week... haiz... busy like siao... nvm... it's ok... o ya my e-lecture!! and i also wanna asked u ppl... can guys be trusted? even it's ur own bf?.... nth to do wif me... but smth to do wif moi fren... ya.. tag me and tell me ya? ty..
Song : [Too Lost In You]
Artist name : SUGABABES
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
shweet dreams;
6:40 PM
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mardi, janvier 13, 2004
haiz... why why why... workload so stressful... see ar.. basics of management hor.. i have to study all the sub-topics.. and it's like more than 10? each takes ard 2 hours... MAN~!!.. and my OTCM lectures are all online... and each topic have like ard btwn 3-9 lectures.. each ard 30 mins.. so that's to say how long must i stay in front of com ar? wah biangz.. bcos of this hor.. i have spent lesser time on my core subjects... lucky no tut to do for all of it except for maths and food chem.. heng ar..
now... have 2 projects.. one is OTCM lect.. know what? i m the youngest in the grp of 5.. 1 from yr 84, 3 from yr 85 and i am the only one from 86...damn.. and this big nerd keep smiling at me... man.. what's wrong?! and the oldest one.. from year 84 is the grp leader.. i purposely dun wanna.. cos workload too stressful.. haha.. so he do lah.. hahaha... from another course somemore.. sigh~!! and my BNF project.. haiyo... i think i'll have more white hairs growing out man.. save me~!!
at least i think i m luckier than myra... cos all her project grps, lab partners arent that co-operative.. and she have to do a lotta things.. and her class, she claimed, is so quiet.. and like very dead.. ya.. and some ppl got attitude... and this gal.. dorena.. she complained to me abt her jus now.. and well.. i also agree wif her.. cos dorena will be wif my class for Bmic tut.. BNF lab and FC lab... damn.. she and marie, who's from my class.. super attitude one man... ARGHH!!!
ok gotta do my management stuffs now.. STRESS AR~!! and next tues... my lessons end at 7pm cos of OTCM mass tutorial.. yuppy.. okie.. cyaz~!! good night in advance.. and also i think next week during hse visiting.. i think i'll jus slump dead on the chair sleeping... and all they'll see is.... ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzZZz... cos i m simply too tired.......
shweet dreams;
6:14 PM
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dimanche, janvier 11, 2004
ooh i simply love the prompt haha.. thanks to nicholas for the javascript.. TY!! haha.. will change the thingy from time to time.. haha... haiyo.. have been spending hours in front of com.. all bcos of the stupid e-learning.. so many things to learn.. haiyo.. now have settled stuffs that's supposed to do online... after this going to revise stuffs.. bmic, fc, bnf...... and o ya.. my csas learning journal.. have to enter fresh entries.. then when need to type i wont run out of stuffs to fill that 3 pages... ok done my research online.. finished my online learning for topic 1 of otcm and management... going to revise le... ciaoz.... study time~!!... cya... nite nite..
shweet dreams;
9:38 PM
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vendredi, janvier 09, 2004
hi peeps.. why why why.. why arent there any tags for me?!
anyway i was real glad that i've changed my eBMGT cds class.. cos the wed class was full of guys.. and the thurs class, which i jus got in, was full of gals.. i'm more comfortable wif gals.. haha.. who dun? hahaha.. life so far was pretty ok.. jus as in OK only.. not exactly very good cos of the workload.. ya.. but i have to study!! haha.. ya.. better get starting quick..
ok did my csas personality thingy.. the highest score was peaceful phlegmatic.. well.. i m more to an introvert.. well some may think otherwise.. but to me i m more of an introvert.. jus trying to open up myself more.. my other scores were also quite close to peaceful phlegmatic.. eg.. i scored 11 for powerful choleric, 11 for perfect melancholic and 12 for peaceful phlegmatic.. this is to say.. (according to teacher).. that my character is well-balanced.. and that i know what to do at the correct point of time.. hmm.. haha.. i dun wanna say any comments for myself.. HAHA.. then did the conflict management test.. to see what method i use to resolve a conflict.. surprisingly.. mine was the confronting type.. haha.. i tot the confronting type was those kind trying to pick a problem out of it.. well lucky it wasnt.. haha.. it's like facing the problem and not run away from it.. face it, talk abt it and listen to everyone's points of view.. and then come to a conclusion.. in other words, the collaborating type of conflict management. ya.. and the confronting type of management is the correct type of method to resolve a conflict and that's what the lecturer wanna teach abt - the correct way to resolve a conflict.. and i was thinking to myself.. "hey.. if i've already get confronting type.. so that's to say i pass csas1! no need to attend csas1 liao.. haha.." well.. kiddin ok? how can dun attend? haha..
ok super sianz.. cos always thinking of what to wear to sch the next day.. sometimes u guys can see me wear a cardigan for the whole day no matter hot or cold.. but i have to lah.. cos hor.. if i dun.. i'll get caught.. HAHA.. cos i wore spagett.. sure die if kena caught.. this is against the school rule.. if i din wear spagett.. i cant be bothered to wear a cardigan manx.. haha.. like today.. i wore a spagett.. haha.. so have to put on the cardigan lor.. otherwise kena caught i dunno what they'll do to me.. i'm jus a gal.. haha.. dun be so bad to me kx? haha..
i think i m a lucky gal.. cos those cds i chose or was given.. are kinda slack in a way.. for eg. otcm.. i dun even have to attend lecture in sch.. all online learning!! good sia.. that's to say i dun have to go home at 7!! HURRAY!! my light years wont be sacrificed and my nights especially... hahahah.. i dunno if there'll be project.. and the other cds.. eBMGT.. out of 14 sessions.. only need to go to class for 7 sessions.. how shiok.. have presentation etc.. saw the tut wks yesterday.. horrible.. i dun even understand a single shit.. all the management stuffs.. some leadership stuffs.. i'd rather marketing.. anyway i jus have to be glad wif what's given to me.. it'll benefit me for sure.
o ya karen.. she's a very sweet gal man.. so sad she's the only one from bms taking eBMGT.. but it's ok.. have me!! haha.. everyone's my fren.. my eBMGT class is practically 95% food science ppl manx.. haha.. hope karen wont feel the odd one out.. meeting her tml at mushroom.. at 1030.. to go to the whatever class at engine sch tml.. hmm.. she'll lend me her bmic textbook and practical prelab assignment.. haha..
ok lahx. got to go.. back at night to do online lecture for otcm.. if dun? i dunno how am i going to survive for the tests manx.. ok cya..
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6:07 PM
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jeudi, janvier 08, 2004
Song : [Whole Again]
Artist name : Atomic Kitten
If you see me walking down the street, staring at the sky and dragging my two
feet, you just pass me by,
It still makes me cry but you can make me whole again.
And if you see with another man laughing and joking making the best of this i
can, i wont try to put you down , baby i still want you around, 'cos you can
make me whole again.
[chorus]
Looking back on when we first met, i can not escape and i can not forget, baby
you are the one you
still turn me on, you can make me whole again.
Time is layin heavy on my heart seems i've got too much of it since we've been
apart, my friends
make me smile if only for short while, you can make me whole again.
[chorus]
For now i'll have to wait, but baby if you change your mind don't be too late,
'cos i just can't
go on, its already been too long, but you can make me whole again.
wooooooooooooooooooooooo
[chorus x2]
ooh, baby your the one, you still turn me on, but you can make me whole again.
shweet dreams;
7:02 PM
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mercredi, janvier 07, 2004
dunno how come i still cant use my com to get into blogspot... damn... anyway i m so tired.. so so tired.. slept during lect today.. cant take it anymore.. haiz... class rep.. damn busy sia.. do this do that.. walk down walk up.. carry this carry that.. win liao lah... ok went for this blardy cds which i din even choose today.. i tell u ar.. i m SO DAMN PAISEH like siao ok? a class of ard 20 ppl... only 5 gals.. i dun even dare walk into the class.. but bo pian.. have to go siaz.. so i went.. saw this gal from my course.. heng sia.. then when teacher taking attendence... i heard him calling .."hor jun hui?" or goh jun hui.. i dunno.. cant be bothered.. i tot it was me.. but i think it couldn't be cos how can my serial number jump until so front.. so i heck.. anyway that whatever hor jun hui wasnt there.. so he called my name towards the end of the list.. "tan jun hui" i slowly raised up my hand.. very paiseh ok? so many guys.. like shit.. ok some guys pretty ok looking.. mostly not.. ok when the teacher called my name.. i raised up my hands.. he was like "jun hui?" and i nodded my head.. then i told my coursemate.. if the hor jun hui is a guy... i m going to die.. sure very paiseh one.. if plus he is ugly? then....... b4 i could finish my sentence.. a grp of another 3 guys came in.. and the teacher asked the first guy his name... he said.." hor jun hui" i was shocked.. appalled.. everything.. my eyes almost popped out!!! why? he is fat! he is not ok looking at all!! and to add oil to the fire.. the teacher even said.. "o there are 2 jun hui in the class.. one hor jun hui the other tan jun hui.. one gal one boy.. not bad.." DAMN!! what the hell man.. so sad.. my name is like those guys' name.. damn it shit..
anyway i m changing class.. changing this management class to thurs.. so that i can have my break on monday.. jus re-arrange some lessons.. from monday to wed.. then the mangagement class from wed to thurs.. then at least.. i have some accompaniment.. hopefully the other management class isnt full.. otherwise my lunch break for monday will be GONE!! no food can DIE!! haiz.. that vivien lee lecturer for management.. isnt here today.. and we'll have e-orientation on sat.. and i have to go sch on sat!!! haiz.. no break.. GIMME A BREAK!! this sat go sch.. next sat go sch.. ok lah jus dun wanna go for this sat one.. so many guys.. i very paiseh one ok? and those stupid guys in that management class of mine keep looking at me.. stupid.. keep turning ard and see.. see what see never see gals b4 mehx? siao..
ok i wanna sleep.. so tired... eye bags... maths lect today was horrid... i dun even and wont bother abt the seating arrangement... jus go to whichever lt i wanna go to.. so boring.. dunno which lecturer is teaching man.. boring until like shit.. n next lect i sure will go sit wherever i wanna... ok i wanna sleep.. ciao..
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4:19 PM
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mardi, janvier 06, 2004
woteva.. i dun see any extra tags on my tagboard man... it's like i cant get into my blogspot for 2 days.. then i went in today.. hoping to see lots and lots of tags.. but then again.. i m disappointed.. no tags nth.. only 1 from sing chun and yiqian.. wotever.. no tag no tag lahx.. haiz.. i've gotten another cds.. damn dun even know what's it at all.. it's eBMGT some online learning thingy... haha.. my parents will be angry.. cos.. i use net day and night.. then if in sch still got to learn stuffs online... they sure say i'll go blind.. haha.. wotever..
ok smth happened today.. well well.. i din wanna come sch today.. but then i did.. cos i did.. haha.. ok lucky i went cos the lecturer called my name out loud.. haha.. i m the class rep DAMN! and myra kena deputy class rep... and we were still laughing at each other.. haha.. ok tell u everything from the start.. the lecturer said that she will tell the whole cohort who's the class rep for whichever class.. then there's class rep, deputy class rep and treasurer.. and myra said if she wants then she chose to be deputy class rep cos of the word 'deputy' it sounds so cool..so the lecturer announced.. and flashed the class list for everyone to see.. then when the lecturer flashed myra's class list... which is AA14.. ppl saw myra's name and she's the deputy class rep.. then we heard ppl saying 'wah myra leh'.. ok then i was laughing at her.. cos she said she wanna be deputy class rep.. anyhow say also kena.. ahahaha.. then she tell me dun laugh in case i kena class rep.. then i said o ya hor.. if i kena i die.. hahahaha.. then when the lecturer flashed my class's class list.. AA16.. i saw my name.. and next to it it's CLASS REP!! WHAT SHIT!! kena shocked.. and also.. some other ppl saw my name.. then they said.. "jun hui leh" biang gone liao.. then the lecturer even wants us to raise up our hands.. then myra laugh at me i laugh at her.. paiseh until dunno like what..well.. only heard myra and my name called out by coursemates when they saw our names flashed out.. stupid lecturer so many ppl to choose from choose myra and i... haiz..
and now in sch.. dunno how on earth myra used to com.. she cant even sign into hotmail and msn now.. so many funny things happened.. so damn funny.. too much to type it down... haha.. jus was laughing like siao.. haha.. and that stupid yiqian know that myra and i kena deputy class rep and class rep respectively.. then laugh at us.. wth.. hahaha.. ok i also think it's funny..
o ya anyway thanks to kian kai for helping me check what on earth is eBMGT.. it's basics in management.. face computer AGAIN!! haiz.. ok gotta go for lunchie... ciao
myra: HOTMAIL SUX!!
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11:00 AM
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lundi, janvier 05, 2004
wth... my timetable sux a big time... tml have FC lect at 8 to 9 am.. then have break all the way till 6pm b4 my otcm lect.. blardy idiot.. so i guess i will skip my FC lect tml and go for my OTCM lect.. haiz.. whatever.. bad mood now.. dun come and agitate me man.. or u will get it..
now i m thinkin abt this word 'realistic' hmm.. yes realistic... sometimes ppl cant get realistic i wonder why.. ok sometimes i m not realistic either.. but some ppl who are also not really realistic asked someone to be realistic? huh? what am i talkin abt? i dunno.. jus wondering.. whatever.. jus dun bother what i m talking abt. no one really understands what i think and how exactly i feel.. jus in a complicated state of mind now.. jus wondering if there's really a REAL PERFECT person exsists.. cos to many of us.. no one is perfect at all.. like say if u have internal beauty.. most likely u are not pretty.. and say if u have external beauty.. u dun really have internal beauty.. ok say if u have both internal and external beauty.. then ur childhood or the later part of life wont be good.. if say everything so far is jus perfect.. then mayb u wont live long.. or mayb u are short.. etc.. i dunno *shrugs* life is always fair.. God is fair.. it's either u have this or that.. u wont have both.. this will never happen..
i dunno what the future lies ahead for me.. i dunno what is going to happen next.. i dunno who's going to be wif me for a lifetime.. well.. MAYB i know.. but then look at the case that has been happening for quite sometime.. it really made me think and wonder twice or even trice.. i jus walk a step, look a step.. whatever that's going to happen this year.. i m sure it'll be better than last year.. there's always a balance in life.. i believe that i wont be in darkness forever.. after darkess will be light.. and the light will shine brightly at me.. jus like after night there is day... a balance.. night is the darkness.. day is the light.. so that means.. after darkness there's sure be light.. and i m waiting for my light to come... it will come definitely.. whatever that happens, happens for a reason... and the reason will be known when it's time to be revealed.. jus wonder if my feelins and my frens' feelins to some stuffs will come true.. when it came true i shall type it here.. i dreamt of many wonderful things.. but it take a year or two to come true.. feelins come true faster.. well.. God has his plans.. fate and destiny will do its job..
Balance
When you open this book here, you focus on the secret of a happy life, as well as on the secret of a healthy relationship. Life naturally finds its own level and if we swing too far in one direction it will always find a way to swing us back as far in the opposite direction, in order to achieve balance.
Right now things are either out of balance in your love life or you are resisting the rebalancing that life is imposing upon you. You need to realise that you can't change the rules on this one. It is impossible to outmanoeuvre the laws of nature. It's time to remember the old adage 'moderation in all things' for this is where we find implicit balance.
What have you been overdoing recently? What are you striving for to the exclusion of its opposite? It's about to catch up with you, unless you make a conscious effort to rebalance things. Are you working or playing too hard? Are you focusing on something else to the detriment of your relationship or potential relationship, or vice versa? Maybe you've developed a mindset that will accept one side of things but rejects its opposite. You want the good in your relationship but don't realise that it comes in a package, with what you see as the bad. It's not bad, it's jus life balancing out.
What you need to realise is that life is about duality. Everything exists hand in hand with it's opposite. Where there is happiness you will also find unhappiness. Where there is generosity there is always selfishess somewhere about. The key is in undstanding that this is OK. This is the law of nature. For something to exists, its opposite must also be present. When we accept this, we need only experience the opposite in moderation. But when we pursue one side of something and do everything to avoid its opposite, it comes back at us in an exagerrated form, equal to the size of our rejection of it. The lesson is that it's easier in the end to accept both sides of life and let things balance out along the way. Embrace a bit of negativity and life will send alng the good to balance that out too!
shweet dreams;
3:59 PM
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dimanche, janvier 04, 2004
Number 1
If u were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number One.. You are Smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, Honest, jealous on competing basis, Kind hearted, Angry, friendly, authorities, Famous Person. Always want to be and regarded as first on pool position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future, if you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction n respect at you, you can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament so because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But make sure in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down this is undercover!! Because of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too. Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children...You are Pioneer, Independent & Original your best match is 4, 6, 8 good match is 3, 5, 7
idiot.. this guy whom i DUN EVEN KNOW keep asking me stupid qns... where i live.. in a relationship.. any ex.. blah blah blah.. height and weight.. well.. WHAT'S HIS PROBLEM? SO IRRITATING!!! why he ask so damn much.. none of him business man... ask ask ask... wah lau eh.. dun even know him ask so much for WHAT? there's NO NEED for me to tell him anything man.. ask and ask non-stop.. blardy idiot.. wah this kind of person is super possessive and i hate this kinda ppl... irritating freak.. and even ask me what kinda gal am i... how irritating can it be.. stupid piece of shit.. ask stuffs abt my relationship prob.. siao ar.. he think he God or what.. tell also no use.. even worse.. i dun even know him.. tell what tell.. kpo king.. kanasai.. wah lau eh... so irritating man... none of his business.. tell him umpteen times that it's NONE OF HIS BUSINESS liao.. still ask.. keep asking where i stay.. wth.. some idiot.. GO AND DIE LAH!! blardy hell.. army guy.. wth.. 19 yrs old.. like I CARE.. kanasai.. stupid piece of shit..
mood: irritated
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2:16 PM
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ok went to get my book back from that CYC!! ya.. then went to my grandma hse... then sit there for like less than 5 minutes.. i fell asleep.. HAHA!! then took blood pressure then go IMM.. sian.. IMM sucks.. i hate that place.. but then i saw this particular shop... some things they sell are very nice.. decorative stuffs... can buy and give my close frens for their bdae.. hmm.. and saw this heart cushion there.. pink colour.. so nice man.. and the pot pourri sooooo sweet smelling... and that also reminds me of the love cushion i saw at take wif yiqian.... so nice to hug.. jus feel like huggin it the whole day.. haha.. but that day dunno when went back.. cant find it anymore.. sigh~.. those furry stuffs.. very nice.. and those decorative thingy.. and saw roses!!! ooh.. my fave.. esp white roses.. i prefer white roses i dun mind pink ones too!! 8 stalks or 28 stalks and wif baby breath.. wahhhhhhhhh..... saw them sold roses at woodlands cold storage.. wah the smell is SOOOOOO SWEETTTTTT.....!!!!! at least better than that yiqian.. wanna sunflowers.. sunflowers are much more expensive than roses man.. white or pink roses are better.. white esp.. haha..
ok i m so darn tired.. feel like sleeping again.. o ya and my grandma and uncle said i m more tanned.. HURRAY!! but still i think i m quite fair.. as compared to yiqian.. and some frens of mine.. nvm.. i m jus happy of being who i m now.. yupx.. tml sch start liao.. going to look for mr sin to ask how come i only have 1 cds.. when i shld by right have 2!! everyone shld have 2 man.. and first day have to bring lab coat.. siao liao.. heavy bag and everything.. wth..
ok i think i gtg for now.. back later to view blogs.. dunno what's the prob wif blogger.. cant even enter blogspot and then kena re-directed to blogger.com.. siao.. view blogs liao then go sleep.. then sleep again.. then sleep again.. then wake up and take dinner.. then sleep again.. till tml.. HAHA!!
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12:26 PM
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samedi, janvier 03, 2004
CHUA YEE CHIEN!! when on earth are u going to return me my book????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! say u'll call never call biang eh.. and then by this week.. confirm.. in the end??!! call also never call? so how am i supposed to get back my book? called ur hse no one pick up... what is this man... always like that... quick return lahx... wah lau eh u...
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10:32 AM
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vendredi, janvier 02, 2004
ok went to god-grandma's hse yesterday... sat there for like 4 hours.. butt rotting soon.. wah the puppy there is so darn cute ok? feel like carrying it home.. hahaha... and then my god-cousins went home etc... my god-aunt said all of them like never go home and sleep one.. so good.. then go out early in the morning.. haiz.. when then i can have this kinda freedom? next life.. anyway.. those god-cousins are all boys.. of cos can lah.. eldest like 26 or smth.. youngest is the same age as me... out of 4 guys.. only 1 attached.. go there also dunno do what.. used to play wif them.. but now play what play.. haha.. then saw their hse in renovation.. a good 80% of it were done... and it's nice kx? feel like moving in and stay.. HAHA!! ok it's a terrace hse.. and it's like 2 families living next door of each other.. so we can climb over the wall to get into the other hse.. my mum's god-sister-in-law.. went to have an afternoon nap.. woke up at 5pm.. and then as usual came down, stand next to me, sayang my head, and say," very pretty".. and when she jus kept quiet and stood next to me.. it really gives me a creepy feeling man.. real creepy.. and my god-grandma said i m more tanned than my sis!! YAY!! waited for this for so long.. cos normally i m the one fairer than my sis.. haha.. but still i m fair.. haiz..
ok read yiqian's blog this morning.. she was like talking how we spent our year 2003.. ok and this gave me an urge to talk abt it too!! so where shall i start.... after O's yiqian and i were rotting at home... we din know what to do and how to spend the whole 7mths manz.. so we went to irc and chat and get to know ppl... i've only met 3 of my online frens.. dunno how many yiqian met man.. more than me confirm!! ok used net, talked on the phone, went down to either orchard or bugis everyweek, went to library every week or month depends on how fast we read the books, clean the hse, rot... and everytime without fail we'll talk abt phone bills.. so afraid that it'll be so high that our parents will scold us.. and yiqian's was the worse HAHA!!
we talked on the phone almost every night.. from 10pm to 12am.. there's once even talked to 2am.. talked and laugh and crap and everything.. i remembered once.. i was talking on the phone in my room.. i looked out of the window.. and i tot i saw an apparition.. HAHA.. how funny.. when actually that's a plant.. HAHA... it's stupid.. real stupid.. hahaha.. and talked abt the future and the past and the present.. talked abt our life after marriage.. even though we dun even have a bf now. HAHA..
and that yiqian.. made me last minute go out and meet her online fren.. siao one.. so ugly like foetus.. then i give that buay song look.. wanna walk away.. there's too much to say manz.. now that year 2003 is over i m so glad.. cos to me it isnt a year that i really enjoyed.. i really am looking fwd to what's gonna happen this year.. hope that it'll be smooth sailing.. hope that any probs that might happen this year will be solved easily.. ya.. jus wanna see those ppl ard me.. healthy and happy..
God bless you.. =)
2004 will be a wonderful year for all.. =)
shweet dreams;
10:41 AM
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jeudi, janvier 01, 2004
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY~!! now.. i wanna tell u guys smth... and.. it's abt... my resolutions.. well it's only one of them all.. cos the others are not supposed to let others know... the only resolutions that u guys are allowed to know is.. I WANNA MORE TAGS ON MY TAGBOARD!!! yupx..
ok thanks to those who've sent me new year greetings.. happy new year to u too~!! may God bless Singapore and everyone else in the world.. May the country be filled wif peace, love and joy!! woah.. the best best msg i've received was from my uncle.. it's a picture msg... featuring winnie the pooh.. haha.. i'd rather hello kitty.. hahaha.. but better than nth.. hahaha.. and i can see fireworks from my hse~!!! HURRAY!! well hey.. there's nth to hurray abt.. cos i can see fireworks every year.. no matter where i move house to.. i can also see fireworks.. hahaha...
later gonna go out.. to my god grandma's hse... wanna see their hse.. after renovation.. haha.. shiok sia.. then mayb will have angbao.. hahahahahaha...
and also.. really dun understand why whatever i say always come true... cos i told myra that adelia might be in the same class as her... to my surprise!! myra called me last night and told me this bad news... haha.. well.. it's a bad news to her.. well.. since whatever i say will come true... then.. i wanna say smth.. *to myself*.. not for anyone to know.. haha.. then it'll come true!! YAY!! i'll say it and everything... if it comes true.. i'll let u all know.. heehaa.. yeeba yeeba under-leh under-leh... HAHA!!
pls hor.. tag me kx? jus look at my taggy board.. it's so darn pathetic... no tags nth.. or rather lesser tags as the days go by.. u all so busy until cant gimme a tag at least mehx? haiya... well now i m looking fwd to CNY!!! and then VALENTINE'S!!! and then my BDAE!!! HURRAY!! *jumps for joy*
HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!
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10:05 AM
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