dimanche, août 31, 2003
hey peeps... i m feeling better now!! haha.. i've got over everything.. fast sia.. lol.... it's good to be fast.. haha.. dun wanna take such long time to get over it.. very tiring one.. hahahah.. okok.. i siao liao..
YAY!! my father let me go to sentosa!! haha.. so long never go liao..
hmm... tml is my piano exam... i will pass.. and can pass.. pass liao can go work as part-time piano teacher.. earn $$ .. haha...all the best to me!!
thanks to those who concern abt me when i was down.. thank u guys.. =) and also.. Zhiweiiwei.... may i know who u r?? and if i know u.. i wanna know how come u use this nick.. lol... sounds like a guy's name.. hmmm.... guy....*hmmm.... thinking*... lol.... haha
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5:22 PM
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samedi, août 30, 2003
Leaving On A Jet Plane
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn.
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn,
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry.
[Chorus]
So kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again -
Oh Babe, I hate to go.
There's so many times I've let you down,
So many times I've played around,
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing.
Every place I go, I'll think of you,
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you,
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring.
[Chorus]
Now the time has come to leave you,
One more time let me kiss you,
Then close your eyes, I'll be on my way.
Dream about the days to come.
When I won't have to leave alone,
About the times I won't have to say ...
[Chorus]
very meaningful song ya??? haha.. trying to get over everything slowly.... but we'll be frens always... looking for the midi of this song now!!
shweet dreams;
10:30 AM
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k.. though it's sad to believe it but i have to believe it some how.. he sent back the survey i sent and with his answers on it. he now finally said he's not interested anyone in particular now.. ok.. i get ur answer.. and u told me not to wait.. and that u arent sure of ur feelings.. maybe one day when u r sure of ur feelings.. i might be gone.. gone far far away.. or maybe you'll never be sure of ur feelings.. but at least now i know.. somehow i really wanna disappear.. no joke.. it's true.. now it's time for me to let go.. and i have to let go.. seeing u might only make me more sad.. i dunno..
true love doesnt matter a lot to me now. whether there's true love or not.. i dun care.. time will tell.. it's time for me to let go... i have to let go.. it mayb difficult.. but i have to.. no choice.. but i m happy to say.. this week which has jus passed.. as in the term test week.. is a happy week for me.. i dunno abt u.. but to me it is. thanks for everything.. all that's with me now are jus memories.. at least i have the memories with me now... thank u.
bye.
shweet dreams;
10:14 AM
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vendredi, août 29, 2003
everytime when i m down.. i will listen to cyndi wang's song.. 'dang ni'.. it's a very nice song..
i m sad.. i m jealous.. i dunno what i shld do now. feel like disappearing from this world.. can i jus do that? i dunno..
"ru guo you yi tian wo hui dao cong qian
hui dao zui yuan shi de wo
ni shi fou hui jue de wo bu cuo
ru guo you yi tian wo li ni yao yuan
bu neng zai he ni xiang jian
ni shi fou fa jue wo yi jing shuo zai jian
dang ni de yan jing mi zhe xiao
dang ni he ke le dang ni zhao
wo xiang dui ni hao
ni cong lai bu zhi dao
xiang ni xiang ni ye neng cheng wei shi hao
dang ni shuo jing tian de fan nao
dang ni shuo ye shen ni shui bu zhao
wo xiang dui ni shuo
que hai pa dou shuo cuo
hao xi huan ni zhi bu zhi dao"
this is only part of the lyrics.. ya.. very meaningful.. i love this song a lot. ya..
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8:30 PM
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sigh~ received a msg from him.. said that he find a girl cute in his course.. if that's the case.. what else can i say? perhaps he doesnt like me liao.. i dunno.. sounds like he likes the girl... nvm.. i m now slowly to get over him.. as in.. trying to not like him.. dunno if i shld do that.. we r only buddies now. and to him.. i m nothing but his buddy.. sigh~ mayb i m not as pretty or as cute as the girl is.. i dunno.. and the girl is smart.. in his course some more.. unlike me.. i m nothing.. neither cute nor smart.. not even to mention tall. mayb this is all life.. think he wanna know her.. next class.. issit AB15? of it is.. i can help u find out. cos fiona's fren.. zhi jie.. is in that class.. so mayb u can have ur wish come true. all the best in wooing her..
sigh~ trying slowly to get over you... shld i do that or shld i not? but u dun like me liao right?? sigh~ i dunno...
shweet dreams;
5:42 PM
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jeudi, août 28, 2003
One day you'll love me, the way i loved you. One day you'll think of me the way i thought of you. One day you'll cry for me, the way i cried for you. One day you'll want me, but i won't want you
You said you didn't want to see me hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when i cried?
I cry because i know he doesn't feel the way i do. I cry because i think of how pathetic i am, and i cry because i think i'll be crying forever.
We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice.
The saddest thing in life is loving someone who used to love you.
I will never regret loving you, only believing you loved me too.
Sometimes i wish i had never met you because then i could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
Love...Why does it hurt? Why does it ache? Maybe because we love too much and too deep that sometimes we forget to keep a little for ourselves...sad but true.
I am everything you want; I am everything you need; I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be, I say all the right things, at exactly the right time, but i mean nothing to you and i don't know why?
I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name.
If love is so wonderful, why doesn't everyone love? If love hurts so much, why does anyone love?
Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.
A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but you hands are empty.
k.. i received this mail from siti.. i find it very meaningful.. it kinda answered my qn.. (for today).. haha.. not bcos of me lah.. it's like cos my frens are all one by one breaking up with their bf/gf then i cant help but to think if there's such a thing called true love.. and it's like you will never know what's going to happen next... when it's time to let go u have to let go.. haiz.. i also dunno what i thinking now...
shweet dreams;
7:03 PM
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samedi, août 23, 2003
ok.. i've changed the midi of my blogspot le... the title of this midi is "leaving on a jet plane". i think it's quite a old song le. but it's nice and the lyrics are meaningful. it goes like this...
"so kiss me and smile for me,
tell me that u'll wait for me,
hold me like you'll never let me go."
smth like that... heard that once on class95. then happen to find out that i have this midi in one of the webby which i add to favourites.. ya.. so use it la.. have to change the midis every once in a while.. otherwise i guess u guys will be bored ya?? haha..
k... wait till i m sick of my "leaving on a jet plane" midi liao i think i will change it to S club 7's " never had a dream come true" nice song right? haha.... S Club's songs are nice.... wonderful!! hahahah... k.. see when then i change lor... so jus stay put with this nice lil midi..... " leaving on a jet plane" ENJOY!!
shweet dreams;
12:03 PM
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to my fren... i m not treating u as my whoever.. u r jus a fren to me and nth much.. i think we can actually be GREAT FRENS.. until what u told me yesterday. ok fine.. i m unreasonable.... but what i said was like trying to make the conversation a little more fun.. but u made it turned out to be like..... (fill it in urself). all my frens know i like to like say myself until like good or smth... but most of the time i dun mean it. jus say it for fun.. for the sake of saying.. u cant even differentiate the differences.. ok.. then.. say if i m really unreasonable.. then u could have said that in a better tone right? u cant expect someone to change for the better when they way u speak to them is like so bad.. not everyone is like yew mun. u said him in whatever tone u used.. and he accepted it and tried to change... but some pple jus dun like the tone u used to say pple..
yes i have thought abt my character... and i think it's ok sometimes.. though it still have flaws. but then again. the thing abt the logical stuff... i said i m always logical... it's only that u dunno... sadz.... if i m not wrong i even typed "haha" out. cant u see i was jus joking or smth? ok mayb u jus dun like it or smth.. fine.. at the most i jus dun tok. which is so so possible for me to do. say petty... say unreasonable.. whatever u like. i dun care. i always think abt my character ... and sometimes try to change it for the better..
say if one day.. someone said smth abt u.. trying to change ur character... and the way they phrase it, sounds so bad.. and rude and like so bad mood tone. u think u will change ur character? yes.. good frens will let each other know their flaws.. and i cant deny that. but then ur tone must be good.. like let them know lightly.. not in a rude tone or smth..
ok.. sometimes i m unreasonable.. but that's so seldom... pple are sometimes unreasonable. but whatever i said yesterday was like trying to make the conversation interesting... like joking or smth... but u jus take it all so seriously and said that i m unreasonable. fine.. if u cant take it the way i m.. so be it. u can choose not to be my fren.. i thought again what i said last night. and it's all so obvious that i wasn't serious of what i was saying.. then u say until like i make it sound so serious and i m unreasonable like that. and u bad mood... pple also will know... cos ur tone change totally...
whatever.... think i m unreasonable.. petty... whatever u like.. say in a bad, rude tone.. so be it. i jus wanna let u know.. pple wont accept their mistakes when pple tell them in a rude tone. and also i think u are those kind when in bad mood u can vent ur anger on pple.. mayb not a lot.. but then ur tone will sound rude and all those liao. i dunno u la... if u dun like or cant accept the way i m... jus dun be my fren. and nth much will happen.. or perhaps i can jus not talk.. u happy.. i happy.. everyone happy... happy?
and please dun think that i still like u as my whoever.... u r not... and i dun think u will ever be.... i now only like u as a FREN... i ever thought that u can be my very good fren or even best fren... but then now???? i dunno if u can be my great fren or whoever... mayb can.. i dunno.. let time take charge. and most importantly.. u can tell ur frens abt their flaws.. there's nth wrong with that.. but say it in a better tone.. pple wont accept their mistakes when others tell them in a rude tone. anyway.. if u cant take it the way i m.... dun be my fren la.. and if u wanna tell me my flaws.. tell it in a better tone. not that i m inflexible or smth... it's the tone which matters A LOT!! and i stress myself again... whatever i said yesterday.. was like trying to make the conversation more fun. like as if whatever i say is always logical.. i never always made myself sound so perfect.. u think it all out by yourself one. whatever... jus so not happy by what u said yesterday. if u said it in a better tone.. things will not be in this way liao.
and i dun think i know what ur true character is like.. i feel that u r now slowly slowly revealing ur true character. ur character now is like quite different from the way when i know u for the first 3 and a half mths. i dunno u la.. u go think abt it. and also think abt if u cant take it the way i m... think if u still wanna be my fren. fren and fren only.. good frens or best frens... time will tell. and if u wanna tell pple abt their flaws tell them in a better tone. not the way u said it to me yesterday. not everyone is like yew mun. esp me.
shweet dreams;
9:34 AM
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vendredi, août 22, 2003
hey.. today i finally got the time to check out the this link http://card3.silversand.net/diy/image/090666.swf this is found in terry's Monday 4th August blog... ya.. it's so damn touching lor... watched it twice.. cried twice.. haha.. it's really very nice...
eh.. terry.. din u say u dun like chinese songs one?? din u say u wont understand a single word one?? and then how on earth did u manage to get the webby add???? it's so nice.. doubt u understand any of it.. hahahaha... but it's true what... dun even think u understand it man... anyway... how did u manage to find it??? and also sorry hor.. cos hor i got no time to go see that little link in ur blog... finally saw it today.. damn nice......
shweet dreams;
1:46 PM
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lundi, août 18, 2003
hey guyz.. i m in school now.. doin blog.. *as per normal*.. jus finished my csas demonstration skill test.. damn.. it sux.. what the hell.. it's like i forgot to intro the ingredients used.. and then.. this stupid bowl was supposed to be on the "saucepan" and i forgot to place it there.. i missed that step.. and then... i even asked myself in front of the teacher," eh? go bowl meh?" and then say...," oops there was supposed to b this bowl here. ya..." see lah.. how to pass like that?? the teacher was laughing at me.. and my frens were all peeping in thru the window.. and when i went out.. they said i looked professional.. O for goodness sake!! how can i be professional when i can even miss out a step??!!
anyway.. kai xin told me she know the song.. the one which i typed.. the one.." kiss me and smile for me..." song title is "living on a jet plane" is damn nice lor.. but "nothing's gonna change my love for u" is much much nicer...well well... kai xin... gimme the lyrics ya?? and send me the song file.. ya?? TY!! eh.. terry u must be happy leh.. cos hor.. i finally accepted smth from u.. hahaha... which is the mp3 of the song " nothing's gonna change my love for u" hahahaha.... but u dun love me right?? do u?? hahahaha... kiddin.. hahahahahaha... eh i like that lyrics which u posted online.. that emma *whoever* (pardon me if i say/type it wrongly) song the lyrics.. so meaningful.. like as if u posted there for someone to read it like that.. haha... i m in school now so cant hear what the song is like. will listen to it when i m at home ya??
hey sara, wenting... etc.... what's wrong wif u guyz??? what happened?? read all of ur blogs.. and tagboards... what drugs what??? what bitch?? who?? what happened???? ok i think i m jus bein kpo.. but then.. dun quarrell over small little matter ya?? dun let these trivial matters destroy friendship ya??? anyway.. relax guyz.. hope everything will be over soon k?
May God be with you always... =)
shweet dreams;
11:09 AM
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dimanche, août 17, 2003
yoz peeps.. went to sleep for a while jus now.. and then went to look at my past 2 years homework diary.. happy to say.. i m very proud of what i have done for the past 2 years.. i did not waste it.. hahaha... and pple like enling, CYC... etc... wrote in my diary whenever i m not in class or they even did it when i'm in class.. full of pigs.. drawn by cyc.. what the hell.. hahahaha... zhu xiao tian.. pig laugh sky.. hahahaha... and u even put ur pic in my hw diary lor... so hao lian of ur face.. hahahaha...
think abt the times i spent in smss.. cant help but think that wouldn't it be a better place w/o guyz??? earth will b a much more happier place with only girls.. hahahaha.. dun all of u think so?? set up the female association.. haha.. cherisse's dream.. haha.. and set up a St. Margaret's Junior College.. vivien's dream... hahahahaha... so funny.. really like the days in smss.. and alwayz... 4e2 ROX the whole place upside down.. lolz..
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4:04 PM
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yoz peeps... i heard this song in class 95 last night while studying that bloody sfp notes.. haha.. studying halfway.. then heard this song and find the lyrics meaningful.. perhaps it's only me who finds it meaningful.. haha.. then i wrote the chorus part down.. pardon me if it's wrong k.. cos i wrote down what i heard.
" So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
But i'm leaving away that place
Dunno if I'll be back again
I hate i just hate to go."
er.. dunno if it's correct but i like the way that singer sings it. nice sia.. haha.. received mass letta from cherisse liao.. what abt the other guyz?? where's ur mass letta????????? have all of u disappeared into a hole or what?? gone to faraway planet pluto????? hhahaha... type us a letta to indicate that u r fine.. and happy ya?? so that we wont worry abt u guyz.. * er.. did we actually worry abt u??* hahahaha.. k lah..
" nth's gonna change my love for u
u ought to know by now how much i love u.."
wahhhh nice song i m listening it practically everyday.. hahahaha.. keep listening to this song non stop.. good sia..
btw.. i feel like cutting my hair... change another hairstyle.. any hairstyle in mind to recommend for me?? shld i cut the tom boyish hairstyle??? eh.. if i cut that hairstyle i dun look like a gal liao.. hahahaha.. mayb wait till after term test then cut lor.. wanted to cut it today but then my mum doesn't wanna go out.. sianz.. if she dun go out then i also dun go out liao.. prefer whole family go out together.... ya..
ALL DA BEST IN MY UPCOMING PIANO EXAM and THE TERM TESTS!! hahahahah....
ciao..
shweet dreams;
2:40 PM
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samedi, août 16, 2003
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true or false?? sigh.. dunno la.. see how lor.. see as the time goes..
I LOVE THE SONG... NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR U..... who's going to sing this song for me?? fat hope lah.. no one will ever sing it for me.. but one thing for sure... i really liked this song be my wedding song.. but then again.. will i ever get married to the one i really like?? thinking too much lah.. or mayb i wont even get married.. think so much cos.. jingjing (holland v) cant get married to the one she loves.. sad... sad... sad...
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4:02 PM
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Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You
Glenn Medeiros
Music & Lyrics : Masser - Goffin
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever
Oh, so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
haiz.. if only someone could sing this for me.. haha.. fat hope isnt it?? well well.. it's really a nice song.. love it so so much.. thanks terry.. for looking for this song, lyrics and midi for me.
well.. i dunno why.. now no matter how good looking a guy looks.. i wont like go gaga over him or smth.. it's kinda like not interested liao.. and i remembered i told someone.. (u know who u r) that he/she cant find the person whom i will like liao. cos i think i have found the person whose character is almost the type of character i m looking for. but too bad.. i dun think i m the type of person he's looking for. sad.. jus wait.. he sees similarities and such.. but i dun.. to me what matters most is the character. and to me.. if u and ur partner have many similarities.. the relationship will kinda be a boring one. there shouldn't be much difference or similarities. well i dunno.. that person looks for someone with a preferable height of 160-170.. so that's to say.. i m out of qn.. i dunno.. maybe he's also looking for someone from the same religion.. sad to say i m not.. dunno mayb all i could do was to jus wait and see.. time changes everything. it all jus takes time.. mayb i wont like him when the time pass mayb my feelings will never change.. i mean this kind of things i'll never know it too. but mayb all i can say for now.. i dun think i m the type he's looking for liao. i dunno. my feelings now is a mixture of sad, confused, etc.. dunno what to do.. this sorta feelings jus come so suddenly.. never expect myself to like him.. but then it jus happen like that. see how lor.. if say mayb when i come back from aussie ( if i get to go there) he might already be attached. i dunno.. it's jus all the Lord's plan.
~sigh~ piano exams coming.. 1st sept.. scared.. worried.. scared of failure and such.. well.. jus gotta try.. hope i wont fail this time round. going for this practice session alone in the exam studio at 30th aug and 31st aug.. each half an hour. the rate of price for half an hour is $12. ya.. so wish me all the best.. i myself also like got low confidence.. sigh..
shweet dreams;
1:36 PM
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jeudi, août 14, 2003
wah lau eh.. stupid.. havin HAP prac today.. then hor.. got quiz lah.. i din bring my TB.. neither did my frens. then the lecturer said.. go to the library and borrow.. we need to have the book in order to do the quiz.. so no choice.. we went to the com lab to ask.. then no one have. SAD.. so we ran all the way down then to the library.. went to level 9 then to level 6 then to 7 to look for a book.. we need many many books... cos all of us din bring TB!! do u know how tired it is?? i m like running the fastest.. but then.. still very tired.. like can drop down dead anytime. REALLY!! not jokin!!.. damn tired.. lucky the book i took.. it's like the answers are all in one page.. it's an essay qn... those answers are all found in one page in the book i borrowed.. lucky me.. my frens one hor.. must flip here flip there.. then some can find the answers.. some still cant.. sad..
CYC!! Terry really have the song lyrics ar?? How u know?? He saw the lyrics.. i wrote it in my notes.. then he say hor.. his fren, ian loke, like this song, ask him he sure know... NEVER TELL ME HE KNOW THIS SONG!! TERRY YEW!! HOW CAN U??? u wait and see.. i'll stare at u when i see u.. wah lau eh.. know the song never tell me... GIMME THE LYRICS.. by hook or by crook.. u have to get the lyrics out.. give u lotsa time to look for it.. but u have to look for the lyrics no matter what.. U LAH.. STUPID!! eh?? u asked how come i always say stupid hor.. ok.. i found a new word.. DUMB!! hahaha.. dun care.. better find the lyrics and look for the midi and dl the song for me.......... NO FAIR LAH U... everytime like that one.. bully me.. humph.. haha.. eh?? it's like u never bully me hor?? haha.. dun care.. u like that hor.. then whenever i see u.. i'll stare at u.. see u scare or not.. hahaha.. TERRY DUN LIKE THAT LAH... LOOK FOR IT FOR ME LAH!!! U CANNOT LIKE THAT ONE LEH!!!
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3:39 PM
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lundi, août 11, 2003
yoz peeps.. listened to Class 95 songs last night.. no djs talking.. all love songs.. there's 2 songs i love a lot!! one which goes like this.."was i out of my love? was i out of my mind?..." smth like that.. dunno who sing one.. jus a series of love songs.. and there's another one.. cant really remember the lyrics.. but also very nice.. nice melody.. listen until i almost enter my lala land.. haha.. it was 11+ and i was reading my SFP (science in food preparation) notes.. topic 2 notes.. y do i have to read it?? cos.. i skipped the lecture!! as simple as that.
i also skipped my topic 3 sfp lecture.. so that's to say that i have to read it up again.. haiz.. but class 95 songs r really nice.. superb two thumbs up. eh CYC u remember not?? we went to mac and study for O's last year.. then we heard songs from either class 95 or perfect 10 .. and sometimes we even sang with it.. haha.. i remember there was this song."like a rose" by A1.. haha... nice.. nice.. otherwise we'll on our receiver and listen to 933 the "zhen zhen jia jia"..
and that terry entered his laksa or lala land earlier than me.. i read finish my notes liao also haven sleep yet.. he haven even read finish then go lala land liao. stupid boy.. then wake up in the middle of the night at 3.. to study... aiyo.. dunno how u can do that man pal.. so did u enjoy the lihuey's bdae party?? pizza... wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................ got tok to her??? written this in advance.. haha..
i m in sch com lab now. typing.. slacking away.. wanted to do my organic and biological chemistry pre lab assignment.. but then so addicted to com liao. did the assignment last night.. but then realised that i did it wrongly this morning.. damn it.. later copy answer can liao. haiz.. term tests is only 2 weeks away.. hope i can pass.. have been skipping lectures and even if i am in the lecture theatre i also not paying attn... so unlike me right?? haha.. but then it's me.. had lotsa fun in tp.. HAPPENING poly in SG!! haha.. so scared of sfp.. it's not the kind of things that u thought u will be learning. it's all abt the amylose and amylopectin.. smth that says then amylose will leak out from the starch granules. and the amylopectin dun.. smth that says abt water trap in btwn the amylopectin. say what the starch granules will rupture if there's continuous stirring.. etc..... factors that affect gelantinisation.. blah blah.. syneresis.. blah blah.. pasting.. blah blah.. not easy right?? and yet i skip lectures.. see lah.. how naughty i m.. then no choice study it myself lor.. otherwise can attend e lectures.. ahahahahah.....
so did u guys enjoy ur poly or jc life???? fun???? stressful??????? ok lah.. tp life is stressful and yet fun at the same time.. wait till i have my inter-disciplinary and cross-disciplinary subjects.. then life will be even more stressful.. so i have to study and muggin like siao.. but will still cont to have fun and cont to take lunch in cafe.. waiting for the restaurant in tp to open then go there n eat.. hahahaha.. enjoying life right?? haha.. i eat so much liao then finally gained a few hundred grams.. and makes it to 36kg liao HURRAY!! hahahaahah... anyway cya.. still in com lab.. lessons start at 12 it's lab.. lab for 3 hours then go home.. so lame right?? i can come sch late one.. but chose not to.. hahahah.. anyway.. cya peeps.. ciao......
shweet dreams;
9:56 AM
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dimanche, août 10, 2003
Find your inner Smurf!
i also dunno what i want..haha.. study now lah.. aiming for 'A's.. really leh.. no 'A's hor.. then i'll feel miserable.. haha.. no lah.. jus try my best to get 'A's. ya.. try try try.. sure can get it one..
hmm.. CYC!! where on earth did u get those lyrics?? the first one kinda apply to me hor?? haha.. perhaps.. maybe not?? i dunno.. i like the first song lyrics.. nice.. eh.. i took pics on CCN day.. u shld have gone there leh.. so many other school pple.. so fun.. so many hamsters.. so cute.. mayb i can show it to u someday. nice pics i took.. look so chio inside.. haha.. kiddin.. oi.. dun vomit leh.. hahaha.. but then it's true mah.. haiz..
somehow.. guys r guys.. they are bad.. but not my father, uncles, grandfathers and my ancestors.. others r bad.. still.. unless u pple can show me someone who isnt bad at all lah.. which is so impossible.. myra is upset.. cos of what her bf said.. fiona also sometimes quarrell with her bf.. so complicated... haiz.. all i did was jus listen.. dunno what to say also.. jus comfort myra lor.. she cried.. haiz.. feel sad for her.. just let nature take its course lor.. no choice.. guys r still bad.. bad.. bad.. bad.. haiz.. ya what not true meh?? true.. whoever agrees with me.. raise up both ur hands!! CYC i saw u raise ur hands liao.. i also raised mine.. hahahahaha... going bonkers liao.. haha.. terry dun shake ur head.. u have to agree.. cos u r one bad guy too.
haiz.. do myra and i really look alike?? so many pple says so.. even derek.. this 24 years old guy in CST.. he said the only diff btwn myra and i is that i waer specs and she doesnt.. but when sometimes myra wore specs.. both of us look exactly alike.. haiz.. i dunno.. but i dun think so leh.. so so so so many pple say we look alike.. then CYC say she not pretty then i not pretty lar!! wah lau eh.. haha.. then this malay guy from another class tot that myra and i r twins.. cant differentiate both of us.. and then during CCN day.. this funny guy from biomed.. fiona's fren.. wanted us to buy his brownies.. and we wanted him to buy the kachang puteh.. then he said i m the one who said.. we he buy from us then we buy from him.. i think i said that.. but then he said the trade thingy.. i like never say that leh.. then i asked him if he mistook myra for me.. cos myra was covering her mouth laughing and told dunno who that she said that.. biang.. then i pulled myra and asked him if he mistook both of us.. then he said.. dunno lah.. haha.. he not yandao.. but he's so funny..
i saw so many yandaos in tp.. biang.. most cute guys r from year 2.. damn cute.. cute until i turn around and look at them... myra also.. both of us stop at the same time and say.. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... so cute.... ya.. stupid us right?? haha.. then when we were walking to the "store" then we saw this cute guy.. then this cute guy gave us a flyer.. call us to join swimming.. siao.. wait long long.. then when myra and i went to cafe.. this another cute guy who was sitting inside approach us.. when we were eating halfway.. asked if we can do a survey.. i m like.. er..ok.. he lent me his pen first.. wah.. so nice.. haha.. no lah.. then he's like so shy.. quite cute.. not very.. the very very very cute one.. not that tall.. haiz.. too bad.. not the swimming one leh.. that one is another cute one.. aiyo.. so many cute ones.. i say until i siao liao.. a lot of cute ones.. got even the type u looking for CYC!! never go.. so wasted.. but too bad lah.. not even one cute guy attracted me.. hahahaa.. eh.. really leh.. i like not attracted to them leh.. is there smth wrong with me?? haha.. no lah.. dun anyhow think.. i very straight.. it's mayb bcos i think that all guys r bad and stuff like that.. then see liao.. think they r bad.. haha.. dunno lah.. jus din attract me.. their loss.. haha.. no lah.. kiddin only.. mayb i can go aussie.. then that side got more yandaos.. australian chinese.. BEST!! haha.. see how lah.. study no good no need to go there.. haha...
" we r 2 in a million... blah blah blah... if the world shld stop we still have each other and no matter what (no matter what) we'll be forever as one..."
this one hor.. i think they only sing for fun.. ha.. cos there'll never be a couple who'll be forever as one.. all bullshit..
"....ai dao mo nian mo yue mo yi tian....." sang by Energy!! biang this song the melody is super nice!! i like this song!!
"... wo yao yi bu yi bu yi bu... yi bu yi bu zou dao ni shen bian..." sang by tension.. R&B kind of song.. DAMN NICE!! title of this song is Every Step.. NICE!!! and also this song.. Tell Me Why... also very nice.. " Oh tell me why.. oh why.... blah blah.. " i dunno the lyrics that well lah.. haha.. only listened on advertisement..
" .. dang ni de yan jing mi zhe xiao, dang ni de.. (blah blah blah).. wo xiang dui ni hao, ni cong lai bu zhi dao, xiang ni xiang ni ye zhi neng cheng wei shi hao.. dang ni.. (blah blah).. wo xiang dui ni shuo, que hai pa hui shuo cuo, hao xi huan ni, zhi bu zhi dao..." sang by Cyndi Wang.. NICE!!!!! the mtv even got jason hsu!!! XU MENGZHE!!!! hahaha.. nice song..
got a lot of songs lah.. damn nice.. english chinese one also have.. too many to list liao..
BOTTOMLINE: GUYS R BAD!! and.. I WANNA GET 'A's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GONNA WORK FOR IT!!! I M ON MY WAY TO THE PATH OF 'A's LIAO!! HURRAY!!!!! haha.. bonkers.. hahahaha..
shweet dreams;
12:58 PM
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jeudi, août 07, 2003
actually hor.. we cant blame any gals who r not straight.. cos it's guys who push them that way. i really need to "flare" up here.. all shits.. nth but SHIT!!! u know how to spell shit? dunno ar.. i teach u.. S-H-I-T!! pronouce as SHIT!! ok. feeling better. whatever the f*** of the hell is.. i heck so much liao. guys r guys they r always like that. whatever.... and true enough.. guys are nth good. there's no such thing as a good guy in this world. dun haf and there will never be. NEVER!!
yiqian u remembered what i said b4?? u remembered right?? jus in case u forgot.. i remembered telling u that.. if ever a time i m hurt again.. i'll never look for anyone liao right?? and i think now i m really kinda not looking liao.. give up. guys are all scumbags. whatever.. i m maybe too mean.. but then i need to scream... no one to scream to at home lor.. so scream in blog.. i dunno lah.. give up liao.. i used to bear this thinking that mayb some guys r still good.. now it's proves me WRONG!! ABSOLUTELY WRONG!! i can never have this thought that guys r good liao.. really cant.. really really really cant.. unless there's really a guy who can really really really really really really really touch my heart.. which is almost so impossible now. cos i think whatever they r doing are all playing and that none of them are ever serious. NONE!! scumbags.. all.. ALL OF THEM!! ok mayb not all.. it's only the exception of my uncles and father and grandfather.. all my ancestors are not.. the others ARE!!
i dun think i can ever get into any relationship anymore.. with this kind of hurt and sufferings i m going thru. it's feels like SHIT!! a total SHIT!! I HATE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER GOOD!! NEVER!! no matter how hard i make myself feel.. they are never good and will never be in my heart any more. i m mean.. yes i admit i m.. i M someone who talks bad and everything.. whatever... i m who i am.. I WILL NEVER CHANGE MY CHARACTER!!! I LIKE THE WAY I M!! I M SO HAPPY WITH IT!!! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I M OK!! FINE AND LIVING WELL!! HAPPY LIKE SIAO EVERYDAY!! SKIP CLASSES LIKE CRAZY!!! stupid shit.
shweet dreams;
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samedi, août 02, 2003
well well.. 2 girls killed themselves.. cos of depression and stress and all that.. well.. i kinda understand how they feel.. it's like u really had no one to turn to.. and u dunno how to tell them and such.. well.. it's really sad.. and u shld at least confide to ur frens.. or mayb blog.. let all ur unhappy feelings out.. then u'll feel better.
well.. u'll never know how impt ur frens are to u.. but when u lose them.. u'll suddenly realised that u have not done much of ur part as a fren. well.. my good fren grace was like very depressed a few months ago. and i managed to let her know that she's still very much loved by everyone... and such.. and i, too, understand how she felt.
i think what's best for now is that to let ur frens know how much they mean to u.. or mayb do what u shld do as a fren.. give encouragment and all that....
bottom line is treausre any and everything u have.. give encouragements to ur fren when they need it.. be there for them.. and most importantly.. listen to their problems.. put urself into their shoes.. and try to understand and feel the pain they are going through.. lend them a hand and it'll definitely make a difference..
shweet dreams;
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