samedi, août 23, 2003
to my fren... i m not treating u as my whoever.. u r jus a fren to me and nth much.. i think we can actually be GREAT FRENS.. until what u told me yesterday. ok fine.. i m unreasonable.... but what i said was like trying to make the conversation a little more fun.. but u made it turned out to be like..... (fill it in urself). all my frens know i like to like say myself until like good or smth... but most of the time i dun mean it. jus say it for fun.. for the sake of saying.. u cant even differentiate the differences.. ok.. then.. say if i m really unreasonable.. then u could have said that in a better tone right? u cant expect someone to change for the better when they way u speak to them is like so bad.. not everyone is like yew mun. u said him in whatever tone u used.. and he accepted it and tried to change... but some pple jus dun like the tone u used to say pple..
yes i have thought abt my character... and i think it's ok sometimes.. though it still have flaws. but then again. the thing abt the logical stuff... i said i m always logical... it's only that u dunno... sadz.... if i m not wrong i even typed "haha" out. cant u see i was jus joking or smth? ok mayb u jus dun like it or smth.. fine.. at the most i jus dun tok. which is so so possible for me to do. say petty... say unreasonable.. whatever u like. i dun care. i always think abt my character ... and sometimes try to change it for the better..
say if one day.. someone said smth abt u.. trying to change ur character... and the way they phrase it, sounds so bad.. and rude and like so bad mood tone. u think u will change ur character? yes.. good frens will let each other know their flaws.. and i cant deny that. but then ur tone must be good.. like let them know lightly.. not in a rude tone or smth..
ok.. sometimes i m unreasonable.. but that's so seldom... pple are sometimes unreasonable. but whatever i said yesterday was like trying to make the conversation interesting... like joking or smth... but u jus take it all so seriously and said that i m unreasonable. fine.. if u cant take it the way i m.. so be it. u can choose not to be my fren.. i thought again what i said last night. and it's all so obvious that i wasn't serious of what i was saying.. then u say until like i make it sound so serious and i m unreasonable like that. and u bad mood... pple also will know... cos ur tone change totally...
whatever.... think i m unreasonable.. petty... whatever u like.. say in a bad, rude tone.. so be it. i jus wanna let u know.. pple wont accept their mistakes when pple tell them in a rude tone. and also i think u are those kind when in bad mood u can vent ur anger on pple.. mayb not a lot.. but then ur tone will sound rude and all those liao. i dunno u la... if u dun like or cant accept the way i m... jus dun be my fren. and nth much will happen.. or perhaps i can jus not talk.. u happy.. i happy.. everyone happy... happy?
and please dun think that i still like u as my whoever.... u r not... and i dun think u will ever be.... i now only like u as a FREN... i ever thought that u can be my very good fren or even best fren... but then now???? i dunno if u can be my great fren or whoever... mayb can.. i dunno.. let time take charge. and most importantly.. u can tell ur frens abt their flaws.. there's nth wrong with that.. but say it in a better tone.. pple wont accept their mistakes when others tell them in a rude tone. anyway.. if u cant take it the way i m.... dun be my fren la.. and if u wanna tell me my flaws.. tell it in a better tone. not that i m inflexible or smth... it's the tone which matters A LOT!! and i stress myself again... whatever i said yesterday.. was like trying to make the conversation more fun. like as if whatever i say is always logical.. i never always made myself sound so perfect.. u think it all out by yourself one. whatever... jus so not happy by what u said yesterday. if u said it in a better tone.. things will not be in this way liao.
and i dun think i know what ur true character is like.. i feel that u r now slowly slowly revealing ur true character. ur character now is like quite different from the way when i know u for the first 3 and a half mths. i dunno u la.. u go think abt it. and also think abt if u cant take it the way i m... think if u still wanna be my fren. fren and fren only.. good frens or best frens... time will tell. and if u wanna tell pple abt their flaws tell them in a better tone. not the way u said it to me yesterday. not everyone is like yew mun. esp me.
shweet dreams;
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