jeudi, août 07, 2003
actually hor.. we cant blame any gals who r not straight.. cos it's guys who push them that way. i really need to "flare" up here.. all shits.. nth but SHIT!!! u know how to spell shit? dunno ar.. i teach u.. S-H-I-T!! pronouce as SHIT!! ok. feeling better. whatever the f*** of the hell is.. i heck so much liao. guys r guys they r always like that. whatever.... and true enough.. guys are nth good. there's no such thing as a good guy in this world. dun haf and there will never be. NEVER!!
yiqian u remembered what i said b4?? u remembered right?? jus in case u forgot.. i remembered telling u that.. if ever a time i m hurt again.. i'll never look for anyone liao right?? and i think now i m really kinda not looking liao.. give up. guys are all scumbags. whatever.. i m maybe too mean.. but then i need to scream... no one to scream to at home lor.. so scream in blog.. i dunno lah.. give up liao.. i used to bear this thinking that mayb some guys r still good.. now it's proves me WRONG!! ABSOLUTELY WRONG!! i can never have this thought that guys r good liao.. really cant.. really really really cant.. unless there's really a guy who can really really really really really really really touch my heart.. which is almost so impossible now. cos i think whatever they r doing are all playing and that none of them are ever serious. NONE!! scumbags.. all.. ALL OF THEM!! ok mayb not all.. it's only the exception of my uncles and father and grandfather.. all my ancestors are not.. the others ARE!!
i dun think i can ever get into any relationship anymore.. with this kind of hurt and sufferings i m going thru. it's feels like SHIT!! a total SHIT!! I HATE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER GOOD!! NEVER!! no matter how hard i make myself feel.. they are never good and will never be in my heart any more. i m mean.. yes i admit i m.. i M someone who talks bad and everything.. whatever... i m who i am.. I WILL NEVER CHANGE MY CHARACTER!!! I LIKE THE WAY I M!! I M SO HAPPY WITH IT!!! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I M OK!! FINE AND LIVING WELL!! HAPPY LIKE SIAO EVERYDAY!! SKIP CLASSES LIKE CRAZY!!! stupid shit.
shweet dreams;
9:44 PM
