Sweet Dreams..

dimanche, août 22, 2004

heyhey ppl..

i went to some closing ceremony of the adam khoo's motivational talk in my sis's sch.. well although it was only a mere 2 hours. i've learnt a lot from it. and esp the ending part where the students stood up n talk about the 3 days of the program, n thank their parents, telling them how sorry they were for not listening to them, for being naughty, n told their parents how much they love them.

to me, this is a real touching scene. i've tried very hard to hold back my tears.. i hate to cry in front of ppl esp those i dunno. but then under that situation, i failed. my tears jus flowed out of my eyes. esp when this gal sabrina, from my sis class i think, b4 she could say anything, she broke down into tears. n said tt her parents werent there n such.. but she still say she love her parents.. well too bad her parents werent there to hear what she said. so what i think abt this was that parents should go and attend whatever stuffs they child join (if they invite parents) and should always be there for the child. take the time out n attend such program is real useful.

n they even showed us ways of negative hug n positive hug.. wahahha it's real funny.. that trainer is a joker man.. he's so funny.. n he even talked about how parents could help n teach their children as well.. i hope my parents learn from this and APPLY!! this is one thing they failed to do. yes they do take time out to attend anything and everything my sch or my sis's sch organise. and attend talks listen blah blah blah.. but they jus dun apply n cont to do it their way. so whats the point of attending such talks?

well at least after that talk, i have smth to say back if my parents did smth which i deem as not quite right. n thru tt i also get some motivation!! YEAHH!! M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N!! what are my goals in life? hmm.. something useful to think about.. yeahhhhhh... this is what life meant to be! i feel much happier compared to last time.. perhaps it's bcos i find peace in myself thru readin the bible.. i dunno why lahhh mostly it's thru reading the bible, den i feel much better of myself!!

shweet dreams;
11:43 AM

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mardi, août 17, 2004

hey hey ppl.. me? hmmphxxx.. searching back for myself.. hah.. u guys must be thinking.. 'again??!!' my ans is.. yes searching back for myself again..

many things happened this 2 wks.. n i was NOT in a good mood at all.. being pissed wif this n that. cos whatever shit jus happened like that. ok. so now.. all im going to do is... to jus take everything easily, if it can be forgotten or forgiven. i'll do it. im not trying to say that i m not like that.. it's jus that i have to reinforce it into myself.. drill it all into my brain.. DRILLLLL!! ok i m weird.. hahahaha.. i dun mind ppl calling me that.

well.. tests are over.. results are back.. 3 papers are back.. the one i expect to pass.. failed.. the one i expect to fail.. passed.. n the one i expect to pass on the dot.. in the end passed wif even better results. heh.. so even tho i failed 1.. (i hope) i din feel bad.. wahahah.. i hope i can pass fpqa and apfs as well... i din study those that came out for apfs.. damnnnnn... heh..

ok now.. i tell u ppl ar.. PBL sux! esp the 100% PBL one.. u know why? cos it not onli destroy relationships btwn ppl.. it also gives u soooo much stress that u cant n wont be able to take it. n i've been venting stress n anger every now and then.. ppl who kena from me.. heh. sorry ar.. din mean tt..

but these few days.. even tho i have my probs still.. but i've tried to take it easy.. slowly.. projs date due coming up..!! ohhhh mannn.. but lucky tml no NLS tut and lab.. HOW COOL! my fave subj is NLS.. lalalala.. n i m 100% sure i m more to the nutrition side.. nutrition HERE I COME!

heh.. i a bit crazy le.. heh.. life.. yes it sux. but i'd rather choose to live life happily n to the fullest everyday than to living it like living hell.. everyday feeling sad and down.. this definitely sux! the cheerful me MUST BE BACK!

shweet dreams;
6:56 PM

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jeudi, août 12, 2004

wah lau.. how come u never do the quiz i set? U.. yes U.. whether u read my blog or not den i dunno liao.. hai i dunno lah.. jus feel like disappearing from this place, this world, this meaningless world, this world that gives me nothing but hurt hurt n hurt.. who in this place can make me happy? i m searching for that person.. i m searching for someone who can make me happy and never feel hurt..

why u never do that quiz i set? sighhhhhh... whatever lah whatever.. i dun feel like talking anymore.. i feel like locking myself up. lock myself up close myself up. ever since friday i haven been talking much. at the most i talk to my mum. otherwise i watch vcd n coop myself up at home. i really dun understand life.. n U especially. sighhh u've never been like that b4.. nvm.. i submit to fate.. if this is what i m suppose to go through in life.. i take it. everything happens for a reason. haii.. dun tok den dun tok.. tok den tok.. life jus sux. mayb it will jus sux till the day i leave this horrible place.

shweet dreams;
9:55 AM

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mercredi, août 04, 2004

i feel................ well jus see e colour of my font and the answer will be out. was pretty angry yesterday. for whatever reasons i shant elaborate. i've written it in my diary.

saw him today wif a fren (sec 1 n 2 classmate b4 i transfer cum course mate). well guess he was shocked to see me there anyway.. and she told him a new route to take which is like supposedly a faster route.. but come to think of it.. it isnt. well it took me 10mins to reach bedok interchange, and 24 mins to reach outram! i took like less than an hour to reach home n how could it be possible that he'll take a longer time to reach home as compared to me?

well anyway, he chose to leave with her.. re-time.. yah ok re-time but can take e usual route to re-time right? take tt first. why didnt he time when he was taking that new route the other time? i msged my fren to see if they had reached tt particular place. she told me he change another bus take longer time but can buy concession and save money. oh wells.. based on this i know.. he aint going home with me anymore. he doesnt want to. ask n he turned down. today saw me.. but still dun want. chose my fren instead! told me ytd that he goes home alone cos no frens.. bullshit. well now.. i guess he is taking BUS for good. money, money and MONEY! willing to spend more time to travel if he can save more money. oh well so be it..

fine.. all right.. after whatever had happened today.. yesterday, last time, last last time.. i duno what to do. anyway i doubt he'll be reading this entry.. never tag, etc.. hai i couldnt be bothered. know what? i m jus so used to it already.. it's like a vaccine... i m immuned to it already.. perhaps i shouldnt ask him back together n he asked the obvious... he asked me.. so what bus are u taking home?... aint it obvious? is there any other route tt i can take home besides 69 and then a train? n i replied.. mine very standard what.. 69 lor.. so he said.. so u taking 69.. *like duh*.. n he bid goodbye.. at that point of time i'd very much like to jus say goodbye and never appear again.. like u know those damn dramatic scene on most tv programmes? those kind.. ppl leave bid farewell and never appear.

ok i guess i m quite dramatic lar.. cant deny that fact anyway.. somehow i jus dun feel like talking anymore.. feel like jus hanging out around alone, do this alone do that alone.. i really cant help but to question myself time and again.. who in this earth can i trust wholeheartedly? i dun feel like talking.. i havent talk much.. even if frens last minute decide anything i also dun feel anything already.. either it's bcos i m used to it or it's bcos i really do not wanna talk and just keep everything to myself.

people who are reading this.. please read it in a very dramatic tone.. cos i typed it with that kind of feeling.. like as if u are reading your script for a play.. n u are going to act that play.. so read it in that kind of tone. thanks.

shweet dreams;
3:19 PM

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mardi, août 03, 2004

ell well.. today.. how should i describe what happened today? hmmphx.. i can say that the paper sucks! cos i did not study the last 2 qn at ALL!! shitx. anw.. can remember a bit larh. it was from the quiz and the tutorial paper.. well what really funny happened was.....

someone *ahem* on stage acting larh.. den so expressionless.. n that was SO hilarious! i laughed like mad man.. and one or 2 tears flowed out of my eyes. ok i dun suan him already wahhahahahaha.. later he reads this then?? wahahahaha... but it's really very funny.. very entertaining.. perhaps he should go be an entertainer.. n i shall be there watching.. wahahha... n this part where this actress came to take my jacket like what the hell.... i was so paiseh ok. i saw her looking at me liao.. n then slowly walked towards the audience.. i thought she will get that guy in front of me but no?! she pointed at me.. wah i damn paiseh ok. n i said.. "what the heck?!" wahahha ok.. i was a bit shocked n didnt know what to do. haha..

while he was acting.. i was thinking.. if it was me who was on the stage.. how would i have acted it out.. will i just acted and follow or i will be like *ahem* ya.. then i thought about the other stage plays i have acted before. well some was just in the class larh. only sec 3 i went back to my primary school for some child abuse awareness play. i dun realli have a script so i can say whatever i want. haha.. the teacher asked me go n act. when i m actually the stage manager, managing the props. cos upper sec students do not realli need to act in any plays already. n i joined both child abuse awareness club and eldds like mid sec 3? wahah.. funny..

probably i will jus act it out or mayb i will jus laughed until i had enough then i carry on acting. well who knows? wait till the time comes.. which i dun even want it to come cos it's SO embarrassing. haha.. nevertheless, i've seen another part of him which i think is SO CUTE! so funny and everything.. mayb he should seriously consider being an entertainer.. haha..
PS: if u are reading this... *which is unlikely*.. consider my recommendation for you. haha..

shweet dreams;
6:04 PM

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