Sweet Dreams..

mercredi, août 04, 2004

i feel................ well jus see e colour of my font and the answer will be out. was pretty angry yesterday. for whatever reasons i shant elaborate. i've written it in my diary.

saw him today wif a fren (sec 1 n 2 classmate b4 i transfer cum course mate). well guess he was shocked to see me there anyway.. and she told him a new route to take which is like supposedly a faster route.. but come to think of it.. it isnt. well it took me 10mins to reach bedok interchange, and 24 mins to reach outram! i took like less than an hour to reach home n how could it be possible that he'll take a longer time to reach home as compared to me?

well anyway, he chose to leave with her.. re-time.. yah ok re-time but can take e usual route to re-time right? take tt first. why didnt he time when he was taking that new route the other time? i msged my fren to see if they had reached tt particular place. she told me he change another bus take longer time but can buy concession and save money. oh wells.. based on this i know.. he aint going home with me anymore. he doesnt want to. ask n he turned down. today saw me.. but still dun want. chose my fren instead! told me ytd that he goes home alone cos no frens.. bullshit. well now.. i guess he is taking BUS for good. money, money and MONEY! willing to spend more time to travel if he can save more money. oh well so be it..

fine.. all right.. after whatever had happened today.. yesterday, last time, last last time.. i duno what to do. anyway i doubt he'll be reading this entry.. never tag, etc.. hai i couldnt be bothered. know what? i m jus so used to it already.. it's like a vaccine... i m immuned to it already.. perhaps i shouldnt ask him back together n he asked the obvious... he asked me.. so what bus are u taking home?... aint it obvious? is there any other route tt i can take home besides 69 and then a train? n i replied.. mine very standard what.. 69 lor.. so he said.. so u taking 69.. *like duh*.. n he bid goodbye.. at that point of time i'd very much like to jus say goodbye and never appear again.. like u know those damn dramatic scene on most tv programmes? those kind.. ppl leave bid farewell and never appear.

ok i guess i m quite dramatic lar.. cant deny that fact anyway.. somehow i jus dun feel like talking anymore.. feel like jus hanging out around alone, do this alone do that alone.. i really cant help but to question myself time and again.. who in this earth can i trust wholeheartedly? i dun feel like talking.. i havent talk much.. even if frens last minute decide anything i also dun feel anything already.. either it's bcos i m used to it or it's bcos i really do not wanna talk and just keep everything to myself.

people who are reading this.. please read it in a very dramatic tone.. cos i typed it with that kind of feeling.. like as if u are reading your script for a play.. n u are going to act that play.. so read it in that kind of tone. thanks.

shweet dreams;
3:19 PM

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