mardi, avril 05, 2005
maybe i should think about my relationship with kevin again. is it pure lust, infatuation or what? is going out with girlfriend a very difficult thing to do? yah i know, i mention it after every few days. i know it pisses you off. then what about me? have you ever consider my feelings? people ask me if i went out with you and all i can say is.. "no".
it's not that i do not want to go. haiz. our lifestyles are completely different. u wake up in the afternoon, late enough for me to say i do not want to go out. my parents do not allow me to go out at nite. i already negotiate to 8pm already. if you don't say, i seriously wont know where's the problem. where the problem lies.
together going to 4mths liao. every month also quarrel 1 time. you not sian, i very sian. yah even though it improves the relationship
A BIT. but too much of it destroys the relationship as well. yah everything my fault okay? sometimes i just feel that i am a failure, a lousy girlfren. yes people always tell me "do not compare" but how can i not compare when other people's bf can go out with them, got the time to go out with them even though they are busy?
you are busy, i am busy. yes i dont mind. but so long as there is free time, we should go out. which couple do not meet for 2 mths u tell me? us and us only. haiz i really do not know what to do if this carries on. dont say right. ok i dont say. i keep quiet. i go out also go out alone. i think i should really think about our relationship again.
shweet dreams;
10:03 PM
