mercredi, juillet 28, 2004
sighh.. sick for like a few days liao.. still feeling sick.. lost my voice blah blah blah.. i jus practically sound like a DUCK! anyway.. sighh i dunno.. jus feel like going to isolate myself again.. haii.. haven been talking much these days.. people thought that it's because i m sick that's why i dun talk. aint true.. not jus bcos of that.. there are many factors which are happening now which makes me feel like getting away.. ya.. i know avoiding does not help resolve the problem.. but what can i do? sighh.. i really hate this bothered and troubled feeling.. hate it to the core.. i hate sluts n bitches.. they are so *toot*..
sighh what's the actual feeling now? i dunno.. i feel stupid, i feel lousy, i feel like an idiot, i feel... i feel.... wells.. i dunno what else. but those mentioned were bad enuff i supposed.. sighh.. what is e feeling like when the person u were once close to... now get to know more frens n leaves u aside? like when he/she doesnt have frens, u are the one with him/her. now that him/her knows more people, n he/she talks, sms-es, meet up, gets closer to his/her new frens and leaves u aside.. sigghh.. am i being to sensitive or what? wells this is me.. like it or not it's still me.. read eelin's blog.. i certainly do agree with her.. but mine is a little different in a way that.. i really feel so left out... no not my gang of jie mei.. wells.. i seriously wont know what to do man..
sighhh i really feel as though i m like a shit! wells i know it's self depreciating.. but i cant help but to say it cos it is the truth! unless those of you who read this tells me otherwise.. but i certainly know for sure that this particular person wont be reading cos he/she hasnt been tagging me for more than a month. well mayb he/she is jus lazy to tag.. but still i feel that it's more to he/she never even read. wells.. i m jus an uninteresting freak.. well i give him/her 2 weeks taking the fact that next week is term test and the week after is holidays. dun ever tell me that u arent free during the holidays.. well u have ur frens already.. i m jus being left aside.. perhaps i should do something about it.. u wont care about me anymore.. u have ur frens already.. sighh..
shweet dreams;
6:59 PM
