samedi, septembre 13, 2003
ok.. jus pouring all i wanna say out..
I WANNA
i feel that i m no one.
feel that i m just so unimportant.
feel that whether or not i m online or rather whether or not i m in this world..
it doesnt make a difference.
i wanna slowly get out from that world of yours
i feel like i wanna get out
slowly get out from your life pal
i wanna suffer no more
some words that you've said
though it wasnt out to hurt me
but still i feel hurt
i wanna hurt no more
it's been many times u said all these
many hurting words and stuffs
though u din mean it
i wanna hear no more
i feel that i m some unimportant fella
feel that even if i perish in this world no one wld bother
feel that there's nothing to remember of in my life
i wanna leave
life is jus so meaningless here
say if i m leaving singapore or smth,
wld you care, my fren?
maybe but i doubt so.
i wanna suffer no more,
i wanna hurt no more,
i wanna hear no more,
i wanna leave.
ok.. pls dun get scared after reading this.. haha.. jus pouring everything out.. it's really what i feel.. sigh~ but really i doubt anyone wld care. no one wld remember me or anything. i dunno.. this is what i feel abt life.. it sux.. exams and stuffs.. it's so stressful... this is jus another round of stupid mood swing i guess...
i really think that whether or not i m online.. it really doesnt make a freaking difference... guess i shld jus come online less often.. or mayb jus use the school com to empty my mailbox. so that i wldn't have to come online at night to chat, to check mails, or to do anything else.
jus dun understand why some pple are jus so insensitive.. or mayb i m too sensitive.. i dunno. i jus think a lot.. think until i think abt things which are not true.. is it? i doubt so.. mayb some of what i feel and think are true. i dun even think i made any difference in anyone's life.. pple can jus carry on living w/o me... i dunno...
and i really wanna leave the life of one of my frens.. dunno why.. dun ask me why cos i dunno why. feel so unimportant, feel so unappreciated, feel so useless, feel so stupid, feel that we r slowly drifting apart ( i guess), feel so so so many things... sigh~ can i slowly leave? may i? can i? shld i? i dunno.. let time take care of everything. whatever u say.. sometimes i feel that it's jus say for the sake of saying and feel that it really din come out right from your heart. i m not sure.. but this is what i feel...
time tells.. time will take care of everything, whatever things that come my way.. i'll jus let it be.. whatever God have in plan for me.. i'll jus accept it.. whatever comes come, whatever goes go.. i'll accept it...
sigh~
shweet dreams;
5:46 PM
